You promised you'd stay

4/3/13

We are at the hospital, waiting. The unknowing is killing me. It is just the six of us here, the boys, El, and I. The waiting room is empty, with the exception of us. I have spent so much time crying, I ran out of tears. So hear I am, curled up in the corner of the room, writing.

It's my fault your here Liam. If it wasn't for me you would have never gone out to the store. If it wasn't for me you wouldn't have been hit head on by that drunk driver. It's my fault Li, I'm sorry.

4/3/13

The doctor came in a bit ago. The news has kept me frozen. You might not come back. He said your in a coma, that you are in a very fragile state. Please Liam, you have to be ok. I need you.

We aren't aloud to go visit you yet. But I'm not leaving. I can't go home and not have you there. They tried to get me to leave. Niall even offered to let me stay at his place. I can't, I'm not leaving you. You're going to be ok, right?

I can feel their eyes on me as I write. I hear them whispering but I don't care. I just don't. You are my first love Liam. My only love. That is why your going to be ok.

4/4/13

We are still waiting for more news about you Li. Niall and Harry are sitting across from me while Louis, Zayn, and El went out to eat breakfast with Perrie, who showed up this morning. How can they even think of food right now!?! It's been two days since the accident. They said you aren't getting better yet, but your not worse either. Thats sorta good right?

"Marisa?" An irish accent caught my attention. I placed my pencil in the spine of my little book and closed it, sliding it back into my hoodie pocket. I looked up at the two boys sitting across from me.

"What are you doing?" Harry asked gently, scooting a bit closer to me. I just shook my head, indicating it was nothing. I looked down at my fidgeting hands in my lap. I felt a strong arm wrap aroun my shoulders. I looked to my left and saw Niall had moved into the seat beside me.

"He is gonna be ok Marisa, you have to believe that." He sighed. I squeezed my eyes shut. The tears were threatening to pour out again.

"He, he has to." I breathed out, choking on a sob. I pressed my face into Niall's shoulder, picturing what happened before you left.

"FLASHBACK"

"LiLi!" I moaned from the couch.

"Yeah babe, whats the matter?" He asked walking up behind me, placing his strong hands on my shoulders.

"My head hurts." I whined.

"Aw, I'll go grab your medicine." He sad kissing the top of my head.

"Babe, your out." He informed me. I groaned in response. The headache was just growing worse.

"Want me to run to the pharmacy and grab you more?" He asked coming up behind me again. I groaned again, this time adding a nod.

"Alright, Rissa, I'll be back in few." He said kissing me lightly on the lips. He pulled away, smiled, and walked out the front door.

"END OF FLASHBACK"

"Niall, it's my fault!!" I sobbed into his shoulder. I must have been repeating what I was saying by Harry's reaction. He stood up and slammed his chair against the wall.

"MARISA STOP, OK, JUST STOP! THIS IS IN NO WAY YOUR FAULT!! WERE YOU THE BLOODY BASTARD WHO DECIDED TO GET DRUNK? WERE YOU THE BLOODY IDIOT WHO DECIDED TO DRIVE DRUNK? WERE YOU THE BLOODY MORON WHO CRASHED INTO LIAM'S CAR? NO YOU WEREN'T!! THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!" Harry shouted. I cringed in Niall's embrace. He just squeezed me tighter. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Niall give Harry a death stare. Harry let out a little sigh.

"Marisa I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell." He said after he cooled down.

"It's ok." I sniffled. I brought my knees up to my chest and tightened my arms around them. Leaning my head on Niall's shoulder I asked them a question.

"When will we be able to see him?"

I brought a hand up and wiped some of the tears off my face.

"We have no idea." Niall responded.

As Niall finished talking, in walked El, Louis, Perrie, and Zayn. They all greeted us with a small smile.

"Hey, how ya doing kid?" Louis asked kindly. I just shrugged.

"I-I need to s-see him." I choked out.

"Riss, we all know that we can't right now." Lou informed. I squeezed my eyes shut tightly.

"Did you call his mum?" Harry asked.

"Yeah her and his sisters should be here either tonight or tomorrow." Zayn answered.

"Marisa I really think we should get you home so you can get some rest." Perrie suggested.

"How can I rest knowing he is here, helpless?" I whispered. Everybody grew silent. Niall tightened his arm around my shoulders.

"He is going to be fine. We all know Liam, he never lets anybody down. He will wake up anyday now alright Riss." Niall stated, trying to convince everybody, including himself, rather than just me. I don't know though. Something told me otherwise.

4/10/13

It has been a week since the accident Liam. Why haven't you waken up yet? They said you haven't shown any signs of improvement. Please get better Liam. I miss you so much. So do the others. Your mom and sisters miss you alot. Your mom keeps telling me that it isn't my fault, I din't believe her though. If it wasn't for me, it wouldn't be like this right now.

After three days El, Perrie, and the guys made me leave at night. Niall is letting is me stay at his place. I hope you don't mind. I'm staying in his guest room. That's where I am now. He says him and the boys are worried about me. I haven't been able to sleep. Nor have I ate. I just can't. They don't understand I guess. I'm not the same without you Liam. Before I met you, I was so shy and scared of things. Now I'm not, or at least I wasn't. Not until now anyway. What will I do if you leave me Liam? You can't. The boys miss you alot, all seven of us. The guys don't show it as much though. In fact, none of them show it around me. I guess they are trying to be 'strong' for me. I don't need that, all I need is you.

I closed the little book and tucked it away under my pillow. I looked over at the window and looked out at the night sky. I walked over to the balcony and stepped out. Wrapping the blanket around me tightly, I closed my eyes and started to hum mine and Liam's song, Smile by Uncle Kracker. I remember how on nice, cool nights like this, him and I would stand out on our balcony. He would wrap his arms around me and hum our song into my ear. I felt extremely cold without him there, even though I had a very heavy blanket wrapped around me. Something was missing and that something, was Liam.

Authors note- i decided to write a liam fan-fiction. I got the idea for this story from @snuckoutwithliam story, 99 days without you. Go check it out, it had me in tears. Vite comment shafe and follow thanks lovelies!!