The worker // FREENBECKY

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FREEN POV

Freen: I am stupid I know I know I'm stupid I'm losing my fucking mind Becky please don't fucking cut me out because of this

Becky: I wasn't cutting you out, I agreed to JB for you

Freen: you did what?

Becky: I agreed for the date, it's what you wanted right?

Freen: I mean I want you happy

Becky: I mean I don't think you know what I want tbh

Freen: listen Becky I'm sorry I really am I just felt like I needed to see something bad for me to get over you, it's brutal and it doesn't make sense and I know once again I didn't consider your feelings but I'm struggling I've never been so alone, I just need to get this out of my head

Becky: I know Freen I'm alone too, and maybe seeing eachother everyday is making it harder for us to even move on

Freen: are you gonna go on that date with him?

Becky: I don't know

Freen: you should go, when did he arrange it

Becky: said this Friday

Freen: where?

Becky; The Square, don't ask me any more questions about it

I sigh as I call her phone this time and she finally answers

"why are you so triggered today?" I complain

"why am I so triggered? you know what Freen, fuck you, you think this is some big game, play with Becky's fucking feelings and pass her around like she's the last cookie on the plate" my heart breaks when she says that but that wasn't my intention and it makes me even more mad

"I didn't fucking intend to pass you around, I GENUINIY WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY, that's why I tried to get you to move on so that I can, don't you understand" I growl on the phone

"THAT isn't your fucking place to make me move on, do your own fucking thing and I'll fucking do mine" Becky shouts back at me, I know she's on the verge of tears right now

"You know what, I won't even go Disney land as well" I sigh heavily

"why are you gonna cancel you have to go, your riley's legal guardian again, I'm not going you might try to convince the fucking air pilot to fuck me in the toilet" she responds and that's when I lose my fucking shit, she really thinks I wanted her and JB to go on a date, I know if I saw that I'd end up jumping on their dinner table and stomping my foot in his food.

"wow you really twisting my actions, I wanted to apologise" I sigh heavily as I try not to lose my temper

"I am not twisting your actions, just the day before that you told me you loved me and the next day your convincing me to date JB? When I told you I would say no? the disrespect is unreal anyways I don't wanna great enmity with you, I really don't so let's leave it at that" this time she sobs heavily and loud and it makes my eyes water and my heart drops. I'm losing my mind over this. I need a fucking drink.

"This back and forth thing is getting tiring honestly how long are we gonna fucking do this? I'm telling you I'm sorry can we just let this go" I sigh, I want this argument done with

"no back and forth anymore I'm final, this ends now, the friendship thing ends, everything ends, it's fucking up my mental health and it's doing the same to you, we won't have our happy ending and you don't tell someone you love them and the next day try to set her up with someone, you can say sorry as much as you want but you don't understand how much I cried that night because you don't understand how much it hurt when it came from someone who means the world to me, honestly Freen, it's hurting me too much, I know I said I'm strong but I'm not this strong" this time I can hear her just sob, she can't even speak anymore and I begin crying as I hear her cry.

"Becky" I whisper as I begin sobbing

"I'm sorry I know I said you and riley will always be part of my life but this is gonna hurt her more if I don't leave her life and your life now" she whispers but I could feel her pain and how hard of a decision this is.

"Don't do this to riley becky, she loves you, I know I fucked up but your her everything I swear to you" I beg her

"I know I know and I shouldn't be her everything I'm just a social worker, your her mom and so is Irin, I have no place in getting involved, I'm sorry" she hanged up and I screamed on top of my lungs before I smashed my phone and then punched my cupboard so hard it had a dent in it.

I slide down to the floor as I lift my knees to my chest and sob in anger.

How do I explain to riley that her mom is so useless and she destroyed the best thing she's ever had.

I have nothing now, I have nothing.

I walk to my refrigerator as I drink whatever alcohol I have in my fridge.

I lay there on the floor as I sob and take another big gulp.

We're coming to the end of the story there's few more chapters left.