Why? Why god why? Again!! I cant bear it now the pain that she gave me before has still some wounds on my heart. I dont want that wounds to open again and break my heart into pieces.
"Hey, shantanu. How are you? Its been a long time." She said while putting her luggage beneath the lower berth of the train.
Shit she still remember me i thought. Why the hell she booked ticket in this train only.
"Ohh hi isha! I am fine. I think after 3 years we are meeting again and that too in train." I said.
"You know i was scared at first. I mean look at our compartment , not a single person is here but now i am relaxed you are here." She said while placing her hair behind her right ear.
Why? I thought to myself Whole train is full but my compartment has no passengers and why the hell did she get the ticket in front of me. God i have many questions from you.
"So what are you doing nowadays?" She asked.
" nothing much. Just old stuff you know , Still working at that same company." I said.
"Ohhh you still go to gurgaon at 8:00 am"
"Yes. Same old thing"
"Not the same old thing" she said without looking into my eyes.
"Hmmm" i know its not the same old thing now she is not mine.
"So what going on in your life?" I asked.
"Nothing just came from a vacation"
"Where?"
"Thailand"
"Ohh nice"
"Shantanu do you miss old days?" She said looking into my eyes.
"No" i lied.
"Yeah, it was easy for you to move on" she said.
What is this lady infront of me saying!!!! It was easy? No, hell no. I still remember all the nights and all the days without her. How can she say such a thing?.
"It wasn't easy! But everyone have to move on." I said.
"Hmm"
For around 10 minutes we both fell silent. Not looking into each other eyes. Just staring out of the train's window. After a while she opened her tiffin. The aroma, i know it was aloo puri.
"Want some aloo puri?" She asked.
" no, i dont want it."
"Just taste it. You will eat more. "
"No"
" you are still stubborn."
"No, its just that. Now i dont like aloo puris" i again lied.
Her face dropped.
"Ohh, i think now you dont like me also!! What kind of answers you are giving. Just saying no to everything. You still hold grudges with me naah? She said all this in single breath.
"Was it me? You left me without even meeting me. You just texted its over."
"Did you replied that message? You could have asked me what happened isha? But what you did? You blocked me."
"I was angry."
"So was i" she said.
"You know you never listened to me" she said.
"You still think that? I was always by your your side whenever you called. I picked up and talked to you for hours without even complaining " i said.
"So? People who love each other do this ,they spend time with each other and many times i was alone . You were always busy with your work. Waking up going to office then you used to sleep and in evening you used to text 'hi isha! Today i am tired lets call tomorrow '. And then you never called me. You used to work even on Sunday!!!"
" listen. I used to work hard so that i can earn. I was busy so that we could build our future together. But you never understood me"i said
" you were Building our future without me. I think it was my wrong decision to start a conversation with you. I am reading a novel. Dont disturb me." She said.
"Do whatever you wanna do"
What the hell, she was reading my novel which was written by me anonymously. No she cant read that.
" dont read that book. It is a complete waste" i said.
" i told you to not disturb me." She said.
I knew i messed up. She was reading that particular novel in which i have described my love story.
Our station was about to come after 3 hours. And 3 hours were enough to complete that novel. I lied down on my berth and pretended to sleep.
But soon i dozed off. I woke up and found that isha was gone. She was not there infront of me. Only the novel was placed where she sat before.
I took that novel. One paper chit fell. I opened it
'Dear shantanu'
i know you still love me. Or else who will wear that red bracelet that i gave it to you. After reading this novel i know this is about us but have you ever wondered this story is from your point of view you dont know our story from my point of view. I wish one day you will understand my point of view too. Maybe the ending of the book will become better. But atlast i want to say that i loved you more than you know.
I dont know but one part of my heart went numb. I want to know about her story also.
