So it was Aisling. (Halloween edition)

Chapter 6

So sorry for the long wait!! My schedule has been over flowing into my secret work life (I might be batman). With great power comes great responsibility guys😔

Ps: I am most certainly sure there will be mistakes. I deeply appreciate your understanding haha

Strokes of dots splash on my eyes. Blinding me to the world momentarily or perhaps blinding the world to me Momentarily. And I am back standing. I smell litres of feelings that are shoved down my throat. Pushed forcefully down my narrow oesophagus. Stuffed. I'm full.

My feet are sinking in the sand. I raise one foot. Up.Down. My leg takes time to reach the ground. Pain rocks from my knees up to my eyes. Suddenly the ground is coming closer to me. Closer. Closer. Pain radiates through my nose. I kneel to sniff in red colours. I taste red on my tongue. It's harsh, violent and gruff. Warm. Very warm. Too warm, maybe.

I look back at the blurry world. I find myself faced with scary beings lining up in this expensive neighbourhood. A white man too tall to be human is dressed in a black suit and causally leans against a blue roof, staring at me. Realistic spiders crawl slowly towards me. I was silly to think that would be the extent of it until I made eye contact...With Chucky. His eerie smile crosses over a streak of blood running down one of his eyes.

The red is burning. Deep. Deep down. I feel it rise up and spill out like bile onto the grey rock beneath me. All the litres of emotions are slurped up back and shoved even further down. My legs rise once more but my next step leads me into oblivion. I can't see where I am. Dum dum.They left me in the dark. They acted like I wasn't even there. Making decisions without my input or knowledge and dusting their hands over my head.

Dum dum. 

There's an insistent beating. Like a drum. Mother had not told me of this plan. Father had simply followed behind Mother's every wish. And even Helen. Did Kion know too? That my own family had abandoned me with his? Was that why he was being nice and flirty all the time?

They left me. There's a deep hole in my heart that sinks until it reaches the bottom of my stomach. My legs miss a step, and I stumble down curvy edges. I feel my hands tremble because my leg is vibrating. I press my hands together, but now I feel my wrist bobbing up and down like it has a mind of its own. I press my hands on both of my ears. There's a humming sound that buzzes against my skin, like when you put your face, and cheek down, on the classroom table while everyone is talking.

I want to sleep forever. Forever and ever. I slowly close my eyes as I welcome the timeless trance. Everywhere stays still and I feel every single blood cell in my body. My heart now hunched over my knee is beating at 100km/hr. I think the arteries corded around my heart and the veins that snake around my nervous system, connecting to my muscular system. The veins beat in my ankle, the hollow of my knees, my hips, and my arms. I feel everything.

Dum Dum. The beats crescendo. Faster and faster. Quicker and Quicker. Harder. Harder. "Wake up" I feel someone shift my body. Maybe it was the wind. Hairs on my body rise even before they try to shake my shoulders again. I dismiss it for the wind one more time. If I close my eyes well enough, it will leave me alone.

"Wake up" The distorted voice bubbles into my ears but as they hold me against themselves, the feeling of whatever they are wearing is like needles all over my body. I violently shake them off.

 It hurts.

They wrap their arms around me and press me tighter. The needles fall off as I hear them one by one drop dead onto the floor. It's so much better now. This feels like fluffy. You know those hairy blankets, not the cheap ones that fall off when you tug at them. I mean the short ones that have a shiny coat, and your hand slides over them like gliding on water. We stay like that for a while. The squeeze gets tighter. Too tight. Too tight. The grip on my loosens ever so slightly. So much better. And so I am curled up with the wind, its cold hands wrapped well and secure around me.