The Man With Fifteen Questions

Will She Ever Forgive Me?

I hope so even if I can no longer be with her. At this point I am now open to the possibility that even if I beg and keep on begging nothing will change. Too much time had passed. Besides, this is far more important for it is necessary to forgive and be forgiven for me to move on. I would like to forgive myself for my past mistakes, for not realizing early enough what I felt, and for hurting her. I would also like to be forgiven for trying too hard, for holding on, and for not giving her the space and freedom she needed.

Moving on is the logical thing to do. Yet a part of me is wishing I shouldn't be forgiven. I'm still stuck into thinking there's still hope. I know I'd be labelled as fickle minded person or worst. It's perfectly clear that I'm the one at fault here and I understood that she already move on but... hopeless as it is I don't know why I still had this urge to love her.

Am I stubborn? Maybe. I tried everything. I confess everything but still failing. I'm still willing to stay with her until she gives in or I get tired.