Will broken hearts find their way back to each other?

26

Keira's POV:

Im sat watching tv. It's awkward. It shouldn't be awkward. I mean she doesn't know that I know right? And she's not even with me right now. But fuck.. it's just... I can't shake it off. Was she moa- my name?? Surely not. I mean we've been apart for so long now. This is too much.

I try to do anything to distract me. Just I need to stop thinking about it. Get it out of my head. Erase it from my memory you know. Then I hear a click. Shit she's coming out.

"All free if you want it!" She shouts to me.

I do want it yes. But I can't go in there after what happened can I? I can't stand in the shower of my ex knowing she just did what she did. And I know there's nothing wrong with it. Of course not. It's natural. But maybe just..don't moan my name. Well that's what I think.

"I-I'm all good thank you..." shit I hope she didn't hear me stutter.

Lucy's POV:

I don't think I should have done that. I definitely shouldn't have. What if she heard me? Surely that's going to cost us somehow. Cost me somehow. I've really messed it up. We aren't even together. She's in a relationship.. sort of. Fuck Lucy. You idiot.

I walk into the bedroom and grab my clothes. The droplets of water hang off my body and my hair, dripping down onto the floor below. The blinds are merely open, but it projects a soft glow through the crack illuminating the whole room. Our beds are neatly made, neatly folded and precisely laid out the way we want it to. My side is slight more messy.. but it's still in a presentable manner. I study these four walls.. taking it all in. Not an ounce of dust lies on any hard surface, collecting things in its passage.. it's just clean. No cobwebs dangling down the corners of the ceiling. Nothing that makes you feel unsafe. It's weird but the cleanliness has an abnormality of comfort you wouldn't expect.

I catch myself out of my gaze and I focus on getting ready. For a moment the world stood still. I forgot all the pain I've caused. I forgot all the pain I caused Keira. I forgot about the pain I suffered with her in hospital. I forgot about... cheating.

Speaking of cheating I don't actually know why I cheated. I keep getting these weird dreams like they are trying to tell me something. And no. No they aren't trying to tell me something but my gut feeling tells me they are. And don't get me wrong Ona is stunning. But Keira is my life. Sorry, was my life. I wouldn't ever think of doing it. Was it on impulse? Was I bored? Drunk? Yes okay I was drunk but I'm not that stupid. I can control myself drunk.

Well at least I thought.

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I get changed and join Keira on the sofa.

"Hey" I say softly

"Hi.. nice shower?"

"Something like that.." I chuckle nervously.

The rest of the evening we just watched movies and chilled out. There is an awkward tension. I can feel it. I won't deny it. She won't deny it. We occasionally giggle at the movies and lock eyes at funny moments.. but we always pull away instantly. It's like she won't look in my eyes any more. Maybe she knows. I think I've just messed everything up.

"K-Keira.."

"What's up?" She replies but she doesn't tare her gaze away from the tv to look at me. Like I said.. it's like she doesn't want to look at me anymore.

"I'm not feeling so good I think I'm going to just go to sleep"

"No worries. Hope you feel better" she turns to look at me slightly, feeding me a small smile, but her gaze just alters quickly back to the tv.