𝟐𝟒 ❪ 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞. ❫ 𝒆𝒏𝒈.

001.𑁤 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨, 𝐢 𝐠𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐬.

𓏴⧼🦋🌊ꔛ☀︎☁️⧽𓏵

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𝟐𝟎𝟎𝟕,
𝐭𝐨𝐤𝐲𝐨.
──────────────

𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐨𝐦

suggested me
to do this
as a 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐨
" 𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕 ".

so 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨,
𝐦𝐚𝐧.

h̶o̶w̶'̶s̶
̶e̶v̶e̶r̶y̶t̶h̶i̶n̶g̶
̶g̶o̶i̶n̶g̶?̶̶

forget it, 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞.
𝒊'𝒎 𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈
𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒑𝒕,
𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒆𝒔𝒔
𝐚𝐧𝐝
𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅
𝒊𝒏 𝒄𝒊𝒓𝒄𝒍𝒆𝒔.

𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠
... 𝒔𝒐 𝒓𝒆𝒅𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒕.

𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐮,
i...
𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬
𝐲𝐨𝐮.

𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑖'𝑚
𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑏𝑣𝑖𝑜𝑢𝑠
𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛!

how funny!!

since you've been gone,
i spend my time
waiting for you

to walk through
the door,
greet me,

and for all of this,
to be a cruel lie,
the product of
a horrible nightmare
i need to wake up from.

i miss you 𝐬𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡...
how could
𝐲𝐨𝐮...
do this
to me?

𝒏𝒐!!
𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔
𝒏𝒐𝒕... 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕
𝒊 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏.

𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥!!

now 𝑖'𝑚 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑎 𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓𝑖𝑠ℎ
𝑔𝑖𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑜
𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘
𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔
𝑏𝑢𝑡
𝑖𝑚𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓.

𝐢 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰
𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬,
𝐚𝐧𝐝

i really 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑔𝑔𝑙𝑒
to say 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔
that
might comfort you,
but i'd better do it.

𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐤𝐨
didn't go
to the academy
today.

i haven't seen her
since the funeral.
i don't know
how we'll react

when we see each other.
she probably thinks
the worst of me.

the only one
i spoke to
was 𝐧𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐢.

he said
i was the " most affected "
like 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧'𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐲.
𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭?

this...
is getting really
awkward...
i'll talk to you later.

───────with affection,
s. g.𑁤

𓏴⧼🦋🌊ꔛ☀︎☁️⧽𓏵