Hopelessly devoted

I'll Change

Isabelle POV:

"I know Eva. I know, I just don't know how to do it. I'm scared."

"Belle, you will always have me i'm here for you." My best friend Eva replied as I strolled through the town with my phone to my ear, knowing what she as saying was the truth. I could always count on her, no matter where I was, or who I was with, she was the one person I could always be myself with. And her with me, we were like twin flames. our friendship was so pure.

I was ranting to her about my boyfriend, who again I was arguing with. It felt like I could never do right because him anymore and whatever I done he was criticising me. He was smart though. He would never say what he says behind closed doors in public. Too everybody else were the perfect couple. The only person who knew about our issues were Eva and her boyfriend. I envied their relationship. It was perfect, he was kind and caring to her and loved and appreciated her for everything she did.

I've never had great luck in relationships to be completely honest. People say, people who grew up in a toxic household look for that in their partners and some may find it 'boring' as its what their used to. I didn't want to be like my mother, I wanted to get it of it before I couldn't. It wasn't boring for me, it was exhausting, and I was over it. Which is why I was on my way to break up with him now, but I called Eva to let her know and she insisted on being outside on guard with her boyfriend Marco incase anything happened. He's as protective of me as he is of Eva. But I saw him more as a brother.

He came into mine and Evas life right when we needed him. Me and Eva have known each other since we were 3 and met in our orphanage, I got adopted at 8 and she at 9, so she was there for almost a year without me, without anyone. We didn't speak to anyone else apart from each other, creating a sister bond between the two of us, making it impossible to break us up. 

We used to sneak out of our homes just to see each other when we were younger and discovered our foster homes were only across the road from each other when I came into school one day and she was also there.

Coming up to his house I ended the phone on Eva and also Marco as they were both in the car on the way to be outside my soon to be ex-boyfriends apartment to take me home after collecting my belongings.

I buzzed his door number and he didn't even ask who it was he just let me up, coming to the conclusion he probably checked the cameras for downstairs. Letting myself into his apartment I heard a girls voice. I wandered in more to check who was in here, hoping its not the first thing that crossed my mind, although that would make it so much easier.

Turning my head round the corner, I spotted a girl held up against the wall kissing my boyfriend. I don't get angry, I never really had, it's not that I was numb, just more of the fact that I didn't care enough to be mad at people. If I lashed out every time somebody hurt me or my feelings I would never be at peace, so after a while I just stopped reacting.

"Oh, sorry I just came to get all my stuff." I said after standing there and them still not realising so I spoke up. Tommy looked at me with a mortified look on his face, he began stuttering, i just furrowed my brows at him, not giving him the satisfaction in being mad.

"B-Be-Belle I'm s-so sorry I-I-I wasn't thinking, I d-don't know what came o-over me."

I wasn't' going to let this piece of shit ruin my night, I was going to go out with my two best friends and enjoy myself while getting absolutely hammered.

"Stop stuttering you sound like an imbecile, your making a fool of yourself in front of your girlfriend." I said with no emotion viable in my face.

He looked at me like I was the crazy one here, which I am not.

He looked at me with utter shock on his face, as I walked past him grabbing a bag i had left here a few moths ago, taking everything i saw in my eye line that was mine before looking around the house for anything I had bought.

He deserves nothing of mine even in his presence.Any gifts he had gotten me stayed behind and I put in a small pile. Because there were only a few things he had ever got me, and i don't feel mean for feeling like this. He claims he has no money but can go out to the clubs every night and weekend without fail.

Walking around the house I caught a few glimpses of the girl who he was making out with, realising she looked familiar in a sense. Finally putting together one of the girls that me and Eva talk to occasionally, tilly, is one of her friends she introduced us to a while back, I hadn't seen her until now.

Tommy following me like a lost puppy telling me things that I know were lies as i gathered my last few items.

"I promise baby. i'll change, just for you, i'll change."

Finally giving in I turned around. "Really?" I questioned giving him puppy dog eyes.

"Of course baby, i'd do anything for you."

Putting my face back into it's normal resting bitch face again. "Too little to late baby." I paused for a second looking at him up and down, stopping on his groin area.

"Emphasis on the too little." I snickered.

I grabbed the few presents he gave me through he years placing on the table in front of the girl who I remembered her name was Daisy.

"There you go babe, since you like having my sloppy seconds so much."

I took the key out of my pocket for his apartment, took his hand in mine before saying. "Good luck with her, I hope you haven't slept with her already she has chlamidiya."

I wasn't worried I hadn't slept with him in a while due to him always being out. Although I was going to go get checked straight after just to be safe.

And I strutted with my head held high out of his trashy apartment with my things in one hand and a weight lifted off my shoulders, ready to go out and get drunk tonight after meeting Eva and Marco.