My life, my Woman.

1: that damn hectic night.

~1923. 6th of may. 7:13am~
I had woken up, my head pangs with my heartbeat as my crusted over eyes slowly open, i blink away the sleepiness thats blurring my eyes, as my hands go to reach my disheveled and matted hair, i let out a sigh, and stretch, the groan of satisfaction leaving me as my muscles come unfolded, the creak of the bed is loud as i sit up, i hold my head in my hands as i recall last night... that goddamn hectic night...

*flashback to 5th of may, 10:46pm*
'Tash! Come on, lets get up closer, i wanna see the vice president!' Rose's voice blares in my ears, we were in a crowd full of, men.. i HATE, men, they make me uncomfortable, and make my stomach churn with anxiety.. 'rose.. its easier to stay here, its very cramped up there..' i try to reason, my voice soft, but it sounds loud in my ears, almost like it's echoing loudly, over and over.. like those words would haunt me, almost like my head was telling me "whatre you doing!"
Rose looks at me disappointed, since me and rose were together, i usually follow her lead in everything. No one knows about our relationship, as if someone were to find out the consequences would be major..
I snapped back to reality as rose drags me forward, i yelp in surprise as im bashed between men as rose makes her way up closer, dragging me by my wrist behind her.. is she trying to cause a scene! Is she trying to get a slap!? what is she thinking..
I apologise severely as men glare and snarl at me, i gulp, as my head shrinks into my shoulders.. or what id hope is happening.. why must she push it! Shes being too dangerous., rebellious! We can get into serious trouble from this.. no.. I can get into serious trouble! Men are looking at me like theyre ready to punt me, im terrified.. not a single person is looking at me with soft eyes.. oh god. I shuffle up closer to rose, hoping maybe the stares would go away.. the burning sensation on the back of my head would soon fade.. maybe. Just maybe. but it didnt.. it burned deeper, almost sizzling as i felt stares pierce through me, i shivered, and let out a small whine of fear, rose looks down at me with sympathy, as she whispers in my ears,
'Shh.. its okay love.. i just wanna see.. then were out of here..'

~present~

That was a lie, we spent over two more hours there, with men still looking at me like i was a feral animal to be killed.. i sighed and stood up, yawning as i grab my makeshift hairbrush.. we arent the most.. well payed id say, but i made a hairbrush out of a plank of wood and sticks.. maybe that explains the crazy and all over the place hair, i chuckle to myself as rose walks in,
'Whats with the snickering in here?' She grins, her teeth showing as her grey-blue eyes look at me with curiosity, i smile back at her, almost like her smile is contagious.. if it was id love to be infected with it all the time, it makes my insides bubble up and explode with nerves.. the good kind of course,
'Oh.. just thinking to myself,' i say softly back to her, my smile widening to show off my gums, she walks up to me and holds my cheeks in her hands,
'Why should i be surprised? Youve always been a bit.. different,' she giggles, i notice how she means about our relationship.. shes not wrong, ive always fallen to my knees at the sight of women, theyre so captivating, like they lure me in like a siren song, their melodies making me shut down and sway to their words, i never understood why i didnt have the same reaction with men.. my parents set me up for a life with a man.. so.. why am i so attracted to women? Why do they please me so much more.. those questions i could never answer, no matter how much i paced and punished myself for the thoughts of liking the same gender, i would be shamed upon! Excluded! Outcasted even, if the people of our town were to find out.. i can only imagine the beatings and "lectures" id get... the words that would be thrown at me as im passed around like rag doll, being shamed upon, and physically abused without real reason.. god.. i wish i just didnt go to that stupid stupid election!..
————————————————————————
Whatre we thinking of the first chapter! Its not much but its a start,
I hope you all enjoy this book as its different from the normals💝.

Words : 809

-kat