Nightmares are real

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A/N: Please read this while listening to the music in the media!

((This is written from Naruto's point of view))

Sweating and panting, that's what is caused by a horrible nightmare. That sort of nightmare when it feels so real, that it feels like you still haven't woken up from it. Sitting up, wide awake and sweating, I cried. Silent sobs that couldn't be heard. Tears streemed down my face as I tried to calm down and stop trembling of fear, with as much as no success. Tears continued to fall and land on the covers, creating darks spots.

"Naruto, are you okay?" Sasuke shifted and sat up, looking at me with a worried expression. He dried the tears that fell down as he embraced me, tightly. I wanted to stay in this warmth forever, not leaving it once. I snuggled into the crook of his neck, breathing in his scent. Reality is cruel.

"Another bad dream?" I nodded slowly, snuggling into the warmth even more, tears still freely running down my cheeks. "You left me, in my dream. I was all alone, without you" My voice cracked as I talked, and I continued to dry my tears and comfort myself in this warmth, I long for everyday. "Why would you dream about that? I would never leave you, and you know it" His calm voice, is always pushing away my worries and problems. Always. I only nodded. I didn't have the guts to say anything more, but it wasn't needed either. He already knew I needed him by my side, so I didn't need to say it. He could feel it, he could sense it. That's what love is all about, right? About knowing your loved ones feelings and understanding them without words.

For the first time in a long time, I let my pain be heard. I let out every scream that I had stored inside for so long and clung onto Sasuke, craving his presence and warmth. Loud sobs were heard from me, causing Sasuke's grip to tighten. Can he feel my pain? Does he share the same pain as I do? He should. The strong bond between us makes us share everything. Love, pain, sorrow, sadness, everything.

All I could hear was the words 'Don't worry' and 'I'm always here for you' between my loud sobs. I didn't believe a single word. Nothing can stay the same forever, and you should enjoy things while you can. But that's the thing with us humans, we don't. We take everything for granted and don't realize what we have until it's gone. But he does. He already realized that he has me, unlike myself. I still haven't realized that he's everything to me, and someday it will be to late. He's a logical person, and realizes what he has quickly, unlike any other. The human being is a cruel being, not able to feel anything until it's gone. Will that happen to me too? Won't I realize how much I need Sasuke until I'm alone?

Time passed, none of us moved. I cried, he comforted. It was always like that. It was a simple circle that we had. Life is built by simple circles, and that was ours. It could go on for several Hours, just like this time. 1 Hour, 2 Hours, 3 Hours. Before we knew it the sun had begun to shine through the curtains. Sunrise came, and I still sobbed loudly and clung onto my lover with my life. But he didn't mind at all. He would gladly sit and comfort me until I felt better, I already knew that. He didn't have to say it. This warmth, is what makes me go on. This comfort, from this special person, is what makes me feel like I belong somewhere. Just by chance, this time, it can stay like this forever? Miracles do happen, do they? If you just believe, then they will happen, right?

"Feeling better?" Sasuke broke the comfortable silence we sat in, with me nodding as an answer. He always made me feel better, no matter what the matter was. He leaned back, pulling my head up so I faced him. "Please, don't worry. I would never leave you alone" Having said that, he kissed various places of my face gently. What is it about him that makes me feel so warm inside?

'Just by chance, can this warmth stay here?'

I leaned into him again, desperatly seeking for more of the comfort he was able to give. He still didn't mind, he won't, ever. He just embraced me tightly again. It was a loving embrace, filled with emotion. Filled with love.

'Just like I want it to be'

The morning sun shone into the room, making it warm. It was like bathing in the morning glow, so to speak. Right now, everything was perfect. Nothing bothered us. I've forgotten about that nightmare as well, nothing else but this warmth matters right now. Breathing in his scent once again, wanting to cherish it forever. But I already know, I can't. I'm a human being, that one creature that doesn't see what they have until it's long gone. I try to see, but it's impossible to cherish it so much when it's here.

Sweating and panting, that's what is caused by a horrible nightmare. That sort of nightmare when it feels so real, that it feels like you still haven't woken up from it. Sitting up, wide awake and sweating, I cried. Silent sobs that couldn't be heard. Tears streemed down my face as I tried to calm down and stop trembling of fear, with as much as no success. Tears continued to fall and land on the covers, creating darks spots.

But this time was different. No matter how many tears fell down my face, no one said anything. Looking to my left, it was empty. It wasn't even touched.

That's right...

Sasuke died one week ago. And every night, I've woken up in the same dream, over and over. It's like his spirit is with me all the time. Maybe he didn't break his promise after all? He promised me so many times, that he won't leave me alone. I don't know anymore, am I alone right now?

My eyes hurted from crying, but that didn't stop more tears to fall. Gazing to my right, I grabbed the old photo of us, holding it tight to my chest. We humans don't know what we have until it's gone, I understand that now. Tears continued to fall, as I hugged the old photo near my chest, near my heart. I would always cherish him in my heart.

"Sasuke, if you're there... please... can you just give me a hug? You know, one of those comforting ones that always cheered me up. Please, just show me that you're there for me"

There was no answer at all. There was no warmth, only the cold breeze that flew in through the open widnow. It was summer, the breeze should be refreshing and enjoyable. No, it wasn't. It was cold, and you needed warmth to endure it. I shivered every second, but believed that hugging the photograph would give me the warmth and comfort I needed. The warmth in my dream couldn't stay. All I wanted right now was to feel arms embracing me, just like they always did. Sasuke's arms. Why couldn't that warmth stay, just this once?

But even though I don't believe in miracles ever since that day, I could still feel a slight warm touch. I closed my eyes, because I knew that, if I looked, it was going to dissappear. That warm touch, it wasn't a hug like I wanted it to be, but that small touch was all I needed to go on, to cherish life once again. A warmth, embracing me from behind, that was everything I needed. Tears still fell down my cheeks, but now that the warmth I longed for was here, those were tears of joy. I knew, this warmth will never leave me, ever. It will always be there when I need it, and I will always cherish it. Whether it's a small touch like it was before, or a warm, comforting embrace like it is now, I will always cherish it, and mostly depend on it. He was always there.

'Just by chance, can this warmth stay here?'

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