I love you.

Chapter 11

"It has to, Im getting strong again, and Im not going to FaceTime you while you're in a whole different state then me." I said sitting on my bed. "No, no. Please don't break up with me, I love you, I love you so much." He said tearing up and going to hug me. "I have to! Its not like I chose to. I didn't just say to myself 'Heyy, let me break up with the one person I love with all my heart, and never want to lose'. I didn't and I don't want to, but I am not making myself distracted from school, trying to figure out if you forgot about me." I said as he sat down next to me. He hugged me tightly, and didn't let go. I didn't want to do this. I really didn't, I didn't want to ruin everything, and destroy our bond. It seems like I already did. We just hugged for what seemed like hours.

Eventually, it turned night time, and Joshua had to go home. "I love you." He said hugging me as tight as he could. I loved him. He was tall, adorable, hot, sweet and so loving.

"I love you more." I said hugging him back. I kissed him in a way I never did before, I put my hands on his cheeks, and kissed him like there wasn't going to be another one. He held my hips (waist) and just enjoyed my affection.

I went up to my room, and laid on my bed. Was this the end? I had a flash back of all the good memories, and when I almost died, and he was right there, to my rescue. He was the one, and I already knew this, but I can't push away my feelings to the thought of loosing him. I have to become strong again, I mean, I'll show affection, and cry now and then, but ill never cry over a guy to the point I would want to harm myself. Never again. I was still figuring out what I was going to do in life, and if Joshua was the one I wanted to be with for the rest of my life.

I remembered when we went Penny Boarding together, for the first time. He taught me how, and we held hands the whole time. Also, when we went to Disneyland, Six Flags, and Splish Splash. We want to go to Paris, and travel the world. I started to cry, while looking at the pictures and remembering the memories. Yeah, I knew they would come to a end, but I thought that the relationship would end, when we passed away. We would have kids, and cherish them, have a big house, and everything we could ever ask for. A backyard and playground, with a pool. The kids would have there own room, and we would share one. I wanted to grow old with Joshua, and go threw everything together. I needed him in my life. He completed it, he was my other half, and he was the one that truly understood me, and loved me for who I was.