Heya xx4 character introduction

1. Hanae

Tw: self destructive behaviors metion (SH, alcohol, hypersexuality...), abondance issues, abusive relationship mention, death of parents

1:花愛 (Hanae)
Age: 18 (début); 40s (end of the show)
Height: 165cm
Birthday: April 29th 2004 (Taurus)
Gender: Female (she/her)
Sexuality: Bisexual
Ethnicity: Japanese
MBTI: ESFP 2W3

Physical appearance:
Japanese type skin
Slim silhouette
Brown short hair (which getting a bit longer later with dark blue wicks)
Royal blue eyes 
Scars on all her bodies
Tattoo on her tummy (later a bit everywhere on her body)
Punk/Grunge outfits

Personality: Hanae is an emotionally unstable talented musician with huge self destructive tendencies and self esteem issues. She has loved music since a very young age, she plays many instruments, can sing and already won many music contests when she was a kid. This passion helps her to overcome all her traumas she experienced during her childhood/teenage years.
She appears first as an energetic, loud, rebellious and charismatic metalhead who wants everyone to spend a nice time together. She's really sociable and when she meets a new person and the relationship between them becomes a little bit deeper, she can't help to cover them with love like they were really close. Her caring nature caused troubles in the past because she used to love terrible people who profited from the fact that she adores them for abusing her knowing that she'll always forgive everything before leaving her alone.

Hanae has a maladive phobic of abundance and uses every ways to avoid this fatality (like giving a lot of love to people for example); she hates being alone because, when she is, she feels this terrible sensation like there's a big hole in heart and this becomes bigger and bigger with time. When she loses a relationship, she blames herself for this failure and has at this moment an emotional breakdown where she tends to have self destructive behaviors (SH, drinking and smoking a lot, nymphomaniac tendencies...). She romanticize the idea the dying because, at least, there's nothing who can hurts her and shows enthusiasm when she's exposes to a dangerous situation (like earthquakes)
Besides the appearance, she has a very low self esteem and thinks she's a terrible person despite being nice and fun with everyone. Due to some sexual traumas, she hypersexualizes herself with contradictory results: somedays, she realizes that she's very beautiful like it can get her negative though worst and feels like she's a slut. She doesn't talk a lot of her problems with friends, even with her closest ones because she wants to protect them of the storm inside her head but wants to feel secure uses when she's really down love like a means of survive for saying "I need help" or has many mood swings in front them where she can go to an extreme emotion to another, to another, to another in the day. Generally, people quickly understand that she feels bad and shows supportives and patience with her and at this point, she can feel the warmth she always missed during a moment and automatically feels better for a time.
This phobia appeared after the car accident who caused the dead of her parents and she also develops a kind of survivor syndrom due to this, believing she mustn't supposed to be alive.

Hanae has also a strong political engagement; she's an anarchist, is openly feminist and campaigns for the man/woman equality and doesn't hesitate to give her opinions about some topics of Japanese society which are mostly progressing.
Thanks to her big empathy, she gives a lot of money to many charities and is a good listener. She wants to make people happy and even though she thinks that she won't live long, she wishes to save people through her music.

Ability: Can plays many instruments, sings, cooking, has a good memory and hearing, social

Weakness: her own emotions, trust issues, impulsive, can easily develop addictions, affectif and sexual dependances, her fear of abondance