Cause and effect

Chapter 5- Grandma and me

So after getting the news from Marissa about my case we decided to go to a local mall to just have a girls day.-Granny, would you like to go get some IceCream before we go get some school clothes.-Ashlyn, yesss and can we get sprinkles.-Granny, anything for you baby.-IceCream man, hi guys what can I get started for you today.-Granny, can I have pecan icecream with whip cream and sprinkles-Ashlyn, and can I have strawberry with sprinkles. We got our ice cream and sat down at a table across from a water fountain. As I took a bite of my ice cream I was brought back to the day when mom and my dad took me to get ice cream, we were so happy how can things change so quickly. How can people change so fast.-Granny, honey are you ok.-Ashlyn, yeah grandma just nervous about school Monday.-Granny, I've seen your grades and I know your very smart, and you a kind young lady your gonna make some friends and within a month you'll feel more comfortable with it.-Ashlyn, thank you grandma.

Then me and grandma spent the day shopping and looking at jewelry and it was nice to be with my grandma, I didn't get to hang out with her as much as I wanted to before bc she was an hour away. but now I see her everyday and I'm so thankful for her. Me and her were dancing in hats and trying on funky outfits. It was really an amazing day it was like a core memory for me that I'll always cherish.-Grandma, it's nice to see you smile baby.-Ashlyn, it really is, thank you for just being here and spending the day with me.-Granny, there no where else I'd rather be.

After the mall me and my grandma decided to order some pizza for the night and watch tv. We watched Nemo and lab rats and men in black. Grandma wanted me to go to sleep at 9 to get back into school schedule.-Ashlyn, goodnight grandma I love you.-Granny, I love you to sweetheart. She kissed me on my forehead and told me goodnight. As I layer in bed I started thinking of school I wasn't even worded about it, I was top of my class and rn I have so much other important things on my mind I just hope I can keep up.

The next morning. I woke up first that morning and just decided to watch the news, when I heard a knock on the door. I walked up to it and looked through the peep whole.-Ashlyn, what's Marissa doing here so early.i opened the door and invited her inside.-Ashlyn, my grandmas asleep right now, but i can wake her up if you need.-Marissa, yes please I have the  results along with your fathers and since ur not 16 I can't share them without a guardian present. So I woke up my grandma and told her that Marissa was Her and we all sat down on the couch.

-Marissa, so like I told Ashlyn I have both your results and her fathers and I have not looked at them yet I wanted us to see together. So I will start with yours first Ashlyn. She opened my envelope and I felt my chest get heavy what if I was pregnant by my dad or had a std there was nothing I could do to prepare for this news. Then as she looked at the paper her eyes sunk and when she looked at me I saw her worry and I knew something had happened. Then Marissa held my hand.-Marissa, sweetheart this is hard for me to tell you but the sexual abuse you suffered has made you contract an std called Chlamydia.
-Granny, NO omg my baby I'm so so sorry."Crys".-Ashlyn, is there a way to cure this,"crys".-Marissa, yes Chlamydia is treatable to help the tearing and pain but the doctors have found the damage to be to sever. And I'm so sorry to tell you this but this disease has caused your cervix to become clogged and broken meaning there is a 98% change you could never have a baby and that pregnancy would only lead to miscarriage.

My grandma stood up looking at me crying she grabbed me and hugged me.-Granny, I know this is terrible news baby I wish I could take that pain from you, your father stole from you and I would give anything to help you.-Ashlyn, I can never have a baby grandma, I'll never be a mama"crys". I need a minute. I go to my bathroom to try and calm down but I did the opposite. I slammed my hands on the counter ,and yelled at the mirror like it was my father I couldn't express the amount of loss I felt in my heart. I knew that I wanted to be a mother since my first baby doll and now I'll never be that it was all token from me, the damage was un reversible and it was all HIS FAULT. But I had to know if this man was really my dad or not, I couldn't live without knowing. Part of me the 9 year old me hopes he is my father because he's always been. And the other half of me is praying he's not because what father could hurt his baby like this. So I walked back in the living room Marissa was sitting down worried and my Grandma was pacing.

-Marissa, we can continue another day if you need sweetie I know this must be a lot to take in and I want you as comfortable as possible.-Ashlyn, no please tell me I need to know.-Marissa.-ok we can. So we all sit back down and grandma was holding my hand.-Marissa, this test will tell us if Micheal Carter is your father or not. Wow.-Granny, what does it say.-Marissa, it's a 99.98% Match he is your father.
My grandma was furious with the fact that my own father could do this to me and, Marissa was sad at the fact the she heard how he talked about me. And for me I felt so defeated in that moment I wasn't happy or mad, just numb. How could he my own father. And why would my mom lie about this or maybe she slept with them to close to actually know. Ether way the truth is out. He is my father after all.

-Granny, did he get this news first.-Marissa, He got to know his results first but he won't know anything about what happened to your body until court.-Ashlyn, What did he say about being my dad about my mom lying.
-Marissa, I don't know sweetheart my partner Detective Lee is with him now but I will ask him and tell you how he reacted.-Ashlyn, thank you so much for everything for telling me this and being here you've been such a big help.-Marissa, ofc Ashlyn I'm here for you.-Granny, I'm gonna make us breakfast and try to calm
down your welcome to stay if you would like.-Marissa, I would love to but I actually got a call before I came in and her mothers body is ready for cremation she said in her will that she wanted to be cremated.-Ashlyn, will there be a ceremony for her.-Marissa, I don't have that information till I go there and I assure you that your dad will not be there, he was found guilty as of this morning and is now in holding at the local police station.-Grandma, what a relief. Please update us.-Marissa, ofc and I should be about tomorrow with your mother's ashes, I'm so sorry for your loss.-Grandma, thank you so much Marissa really.-Marissa, absolutely.

Then she walked out and I started crying again it wasn't over my dad or my body situation but I haven't been able to fully grieve to loss of my mother because of this man, I hated him so much he took everything from me, my mom, my motherhood, my home, my childhood.-Ashlyn,"crys" grandma I miss her so much, I didn't know, I should've checked on her, I should've known I could've done something to save her.-Grandma, I'll miss your mother to sweetheart but please don't blame yourself there was nothing you could have done honey, you couldn't have known she would have...we just have to cherish her memories and as long as she's in our hearts she'll never be fully gone.