reneé rapp - What Can I Do?
"i wonder if she notices the things that i can, you don't even get it, no you don't understand."
"i want you, but i know i'm only one of your friends"
In which Angel bellucci releases a song and ghosts the man it's about...
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"angel, do you need a break?" angels producer, joshua spoke softly through the headset behind the glass panel to the recording room. with tears slowly falling from angels eyes, "no, no, we really need to get this finished for the album" they say directing their attention back to the microphone. "i know this is hard, we can scrap it if it's really that draining" he replied, the older man had always seen angel as sort of a younger sibling and was always mindful and accepting of the young singers emotions on the topic of this man. "no, i can't take it anymore, i feel sick every time i think of them together let alone see them. you know this is how i express my feelings." they muttered, wiping their eyes with the back of their hands. "of course darling, back from the top then?" he gave apologetic eyes towards the singer. they just nodded and get ready to sing the line again.
"i'd rather keep on lyin' than to tell you the truth, so i'll be here forever wondering, what can i do, what can i do?" their voice danced around the recording studio as joshua praised the vocals for that take and both of them got ready to record the next line.
2 months later, they were horrified. today angel woke up remembering that their label had confirmed to the public that tomorrow would be the release date of the album. they weren't scared of the public's response, no not in the slightest. the weight on their chest was to do with him. they had told him about the release earlier than the public knew, as they had been close friends for as long as the two could remember. but know they were regretting greenlighting that song, knowing it could absolutely demolish their friendship. maybe it was a good thing, maybe this is what they needed to say to let go and forget.
waking up and immediately running to the bathroom was not on their schedule for the last day before release, throwing up all their feelings did not help the nerves.
they had already made their mind up, from tonight they would remove him from all their contacts, try to start a newer healthier version of themselves, instead of pining after a man in a happy relationship that would never see them as more than friends.
little did they know, he had planned a suprise listening party with all their close friends and family, he had been planning since they told him. that night they went through all their social media's blocking him and her for good measure. finally they got to their contacts.
block caller
they press it.
'you will not receive, phone calls, messages or facetime calls from people on the block list.'
block cancel
with a deep breath they press the block button and throw their phone harshly down onto the couch. only to pick it up again quickly to call their mum. who didn't answer, angel was in desperate need of comfort and quickly made the rash decision to drive to italy over night to stay with their mum while the fallout of the album they could see coming from a mile away would occur.
