Always Been You

Chapter 1

Semi edited.

~~~Lexi's pov~~~

I groggly reach for my alarm clock to shut it off.

I sit up and stretch then get ready for work.

I work for my ex husband's event planning company.

Even though we've been divorced for 2 and a half years now, I still work there.

Honestly if it wasn't for my ex mother in law feeling sorry for me given the situation, I'd probably be without a job and living back home with my parents.

I'm very fortunate for Brock's mom taking pity on me and letting me stay at the company, but I honestly don't know how much longer I'll be there.

You see, my ex husband is very well known and liked, given his status, and when clients found out that I divorced him (for good reason mind you) they dropped me and went to someone else.

It's very frustrating that they'd do that, but when someone has status nothing matters, and if they knew the reason I divorced him maybe they'd change their tune.

Since I have very little clients all I do is sit in my office and do nothing and I have the unfortunate pleasure of seeing my ex husband dote on his pregnant girlfriend.

I let out a painful sigh and get ready for work.

If you're wondering, I'm not pining over my ex, I'm pining over the possibility of what I've always wanted but will never have now.

Pushing that painful memory away I get myself together and take a shower then eat a quick breakfast.

Between having to see my ex everyday, all his narcissistic comments towards me, and not having an client due to my ex, I'm burnt out and need a break.

Or quit.

Thankfully with Christmas in a few weeks I'll be getting that break and I get to spend it with my family.

I love my family, especially my Christmas crazy mother, and if it wasn't for them I don't know where I'd be.

You see 2 and a half years ago Brock and I were trying for kids, when I started to have abnormal bleeding I didn't think anything of it since I have cysts on my ovaries.

It wasn't until it started to get worse so I went to get checked out and they found out I had uterine cancer.

My dream was to always be a mom and have kids of my own, so when they told me that I was heartbroken.

Honestly I felt like I was having an out of body experience.

Unfortunately it was so bad that we had to do treatment right away so I wasn't able to freeze my eggs.

The tumor was bigger than they expected so a hysterectomy was the best plan of treatment no matter how hard the decision was.

My grandma had the same cancer and so did her mother, but I guess it skipped a generation and spared my mom.

Not only did I lose the option to have children, but my marriage fell apart and my ex showed me his true colors.

He started blaming me and being an asshole and at first I thought it was because we could no longer have biological children together, but that wasn't the case.

He said that appearances matter and if we won't have a biological child it'll look bad on the company and him.

He kept saying how it was my fault for not checking to make sure this wouldn't happen and I should've frozen eggs just in case.