Longing For Love

08

After those months na niligawan ako ni Yuan, it has been 10 months since he started courting me. At first, inisip ko na pinagtitripan lang niya ako. But he really proved that he truly loves me.

Yuan is a genuinely good man, and I can confidently say that he’s a gentleman and pure-hearted. He trusts me. He even opened up about his parents, and I was shocked to learn that they want to control his life.

He shared with me how his parents have always had strong opinions about the choices he makes — from the course he took in college to the friends he should hang out with. Yuan admitted that sometimes, it felt like he was living their dreams instead of his own.

What really broke my heart was when he said, “Minsan, parang hindi ko alam kung sino talaga ako.” But despite all that, Yuan never held any grudges against them. He explained that he understood where they were coming from — they just wanted the best for him, even if it sometimes felt too much.

Hearing him open up like that made me realize how much trust he had in me. It wasn’t easy for him to share something so personal, but he chose to let me in. And in return, I assured him that I’d always be there to support him, whether it was finding his own path or standing up for himself.

Yuan’s strength amazes me. Despite the pressure from his parents, he still managed to be his own person when he was with me. He told me that I made him feel free, like he could breathe and just be himself. Those words stayed with me, and they made me fall for him even more.

Now, as we continue this journey together, I know it won’t always be easy. There will be challenges, especially with the expectations his parents have for him. But one thing is certain — I’ll stand by Yuan’s side, just as he’s always been there for me. Together, we’ll figure things out, one step at a time.

And I feel so soft, I admit it. I’ve always been a super strong, independent woman. But when I’m with Yuan? It’s different. He never lets a single thing hurt me, not even a speck of trouble or worry.

He treats me like I’m someone precious, someone worth protecting. At first, it felt strange—I'm not used to being taken care of like that. But with Yuan, it feels so natural. He doesn’t do it because he thinks I’m weak; he does it because he genuinely wants to make my life easier and happier.

I can still be my strong, independent self, but with Yuan, I’ve learned that it’s okay to let someone else carry the weight sometimes. It’s okay to lean on someone who loves you unconditionally. With him, I feel safe, valued, and, most of all, loved in a way I’ve never experienced before.

I’ve learned a lot of things because of Yuan. I love him for treating me with kindness and respect. I love him for making me feel the way my family does—safe, loved, and valued.

In fact, my family already knows him. I introduced Yuan to my parents, and they were so happy to meet him. They could see how much he means to me and how much he’s helped me grow. My parents even said that they’re glad I found someone who treats me right, especially after everything I went through.

The trauma I had before, the pain I carried for so long, feels like it’s finally fading away. Yuan has been a big part of my healing journey. His patience, understanding, and love made me believe in myself and in love again. And for that, I’ll always be grateful to him.

And now? Guess what—sasagutin ko na ang manliligaw ko. After everything we’ve been through, I know in my heart that he’s the one I want to be with.

He invited me to a date, but what he doesn’t know is that this time, I have something special planned for him. Hindi niya alam na sasagutin ko na siya. I can already imagine his reaction—the surprise, the joy, and maybe even the tears.