Ferrari Series - Yearning For Your False Allures

Chapter Nine

When I Love‚ I Love Hard

This day‚ I woke up differently from how i wake up these days. I have an heavy heart‚ before and after I sleep‚ baka dahil lang sa mga ginagawa sakin ni Marceau.

Pinauwi nako ni Marceau sa mansyon‚ aalagaan nya muna si Alizandra. And‚ and I hope I was the girl that he is taking care of. Wala din si Cezilion‚ pinatawag sa kumpanya‚ kaya ang mga guards and maids lang dito ang kasama ko. I used to be alone‚ kahit noong bata pa ako. Even mom is still alive‚ I don't have enough friends.

Nagtimpla ako ng kape at tumambay muna ako sa garden. Waiting for Marceau or Cezilion‚ maalin sa dalawa ang unang umuwi. Pagkatapos kong uminom ng kape ay nanigarilyo ako‚ medyo matagal na din na hindi ako nanigarilyo. Ayaw ni Marceau‚ baka daw malanghap ni Alizandra‚ buntis pa naman.

And a two Ferrari came‚ it's Marceau and Cezilion‚ they're separated? Nagkagalit ba ang dalawa dahil saakin?

Bumaba na nang sasakyan si Marceau‚ may inasikaso lang madali si Cezilion sa mga guards and maids. May kasama si Marceau‚ it's a little girl‚ she's kinda looked like Szahara‚ my singing teacher.

"Who's that kid?" I asked him coldly "She's Szahara's little sister‚ Szania‚ meet ate Zerafina." saad nya "Marceau... I don't like kids‚ I hate them." reklamo ko "You'll love her‚ she's kind..." he gaslighted me "Anong gagawin nyan dito?" I suddenly asked "She's sleeping here‚ Szahara is busy with her own business." he explained "How do you know everything?" I asked curiously "She's my childhood friend... I know everything about her." he said "Anong plano mo sa pagkanta mo? Sabi ni Szahara hindi ka na daw napasok‚ you're always absent." he added "Why do you care?" I raised my eyebrows "That's not my focus right now‚ I need to be an Magna Cum Laude." dagdag ko.

"By the way‚ where's your Alizandra?" I asked him "Pinauwi ko muna‚ si Elizìandro na muna ang mag-aalaga." saad nya at tinalikuran ko naman sya.

"Kuya Marceau... she's kinda rude‚ it's disrespectful." saad ng bata "It's okay... maybe ate Zerafina has a tantrums today‚ it'll be fine." sagot ni Marceau.

Busy akong nagbabasa ng libro sa sofa‚ it's A Rose Amidst The Gunfire by dfntlypyang. Then she suddenly approached me‚ ang kulit-kulit. "Ate‚ kuya Marceau said that you're one of ate Szahara's student? Can you sing for me?" she pouted "Ang kulit-kulit mo naman!" I said with an irritation "Please... wala si ate Szahara ngayon‚ her voice calms me." she pleased "Gusto mo talaga?" I asked her then she nodded "Go‚ ask for the guitar‚ alam ni Marceau kung na saan." I added.

Inabot nya ang gitara saakin‚ it's my guitar.

"I loved you so much‚ that I settled for less ~
Oh‚ you we're my everything‚ and I was your second best ~" pagkanta ko.

"I love your voice‚ ate Zera!" she said "But... who made you broken?" dagdag nya kaya napatingin ako kay Marceau na nanunuod saaming dalawa habang umiinom ng wine. "Wait... so it means... kuya Marceau is the reason why you're being in pain the you just gonna express yourself with a music?" she asked then I suddenly nodded. "Do you know? Before we arrived here‚ kuya Marceau tell some infos about you." saad nya "He said that you're so pretty‚ you're smart and definitely fun. Your eyes is like an angel from the heaven and your hair is like a ocean that has a beautiful waves." she explained "He really said that?" tanong ko at tumango naman sya "Kasi... sa pagkakaalam ko‚ he doesn't love me. He love Alizandra instead‚ eh hindi naman nya ako kayang ipaglaban." I added.

"Are you sure?" biglang tanong ni Marceau habang papalapit saamin "I'm ready to be your bulletproof vest‚ Zerafina‚ ipaglalaban kita." he added "Then... then prove it! Just fucking prove it‚ Marceau‚ patunayan mo!" I stood up "I'm not the father‚ Zerafina. It's freaking Ishmael‚ at kinausap ko na si dad tungkol duon." he explained "Then‚ what about your marriage with her?" I asked him "We're not married yet‚ it's... it's a show." saad nya "Pero kahit naman hindi maging kayo ni Fiona man yan o ni Alizandra‚ I know I'll always be the second best." saad ko "I was the other woman‚ Marceau!" I added "No‚ you are not." pagdidiin nya "Pero bakit kapag may dumadating na babae dyan sa buhay mo‚ nakakalimutan mo ako." saad ko "First‚ muntik mo na akong saktan because of Fiona. Second‚ hindi mo ako maipaglaban because of Alizandra. Sinong sunod? Si Szahara na ba yan?" I added "One day‚ Zerafina‚ you'll understand everything." he said "Kailan? Kailan ko pa maintindihan‚ litong-lito na ang isipan ko sa mga pinaggagagawa mo saakin‚ Marceau!" I said.