I was biking to his apartment, still in my uniform.
I stopped at the apartment building and i parked my bike where it wouldn't get stolen or towed.
The receptionist immediately recognized me as i used to live here. Mrs. Lee was the best woman I've ever met. My mom comes first, actually. Mrs. Lee is second.
"Hwanyoung, honey! I didn't see you this morning." Mrs. Lee exclaimed.
"Oh, i moved out yesterday."
Mrs. Lee looked concerned.
"Did you and Jeonghan-"
I knew what she was going to say
"Well, yes."
"oh. Get well soon." Ms. Lee said.
I just bowed and went upstairs.
I kept walking around to find Jeonghan's apartment.
"1001..1003...1004. Found it."
Apartment 1004. What was once my home with the love of my life. Or so i thought.
I knocked on the door multiple times, but no one was answering.
"Is he asleep?"
I kept shouting his name while knocking.
"Jeonghan! Yoon Jeonghan!"
No one was answering.
I kept knocking, well maybe banging on his door.
"Jeong f*cking Han!!! Open the goddamn door!"
Before i knew it, i crouched infront the door and started crying. Which I've been doing alot. I don't care if people judge me for what I'm doing right now. I'm human too, i have feelings.
[AUTHOR'S NOTE: HERE'S A REMINDER THAT YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID! IT'S OKAY TO FEEL SAD, ANGRY AND JEALOUS, YOU'RE A HUMAN, NOT A ROBOT.<3]
"Hwannie..." Jeonghan whispered, as he stared at my figure crouching and crying.
As I heard him say my nickname, i immediately hugged him.
"Ikaw nalang ulit. (I want you again.)"
I was so caught up in my emotions, i started talking in my mother tounge. I was born and raised until 11 years old in the Philippines so I'm Korean-Filipino.
I taught Jeonghan some words, so he understood me a little.
“Tayo nalang ulit? (Can we date again?)” I sobbed.
“If only it was that easy.”
“How would it be hard, Han?”
“It would be toxic.”
I broke the hug.
“You do hate me.”
I assumed he did.
I left the building, went on my bike and drove a little too fast.
Before i even knew it, i got into an accident. Last thing i saw before things went dark was Jeonghan.
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Sikulo
FanfictionThe word "Sikulo" in Filipino means "cycle" in English. Jeonghan and Hwanyoung break up, yet they still love eachother??? It's a weird cycle... (i have some typos and im so so sorry about them! I'll fix them... soon?)
