Runaway's Love

Prologue

I was seriously looking at the mirror in a daze while letting two make-up artists fix me up. I don't know what's going on around me, I've been this quiet and stupid for a while now, today is the worst I've ever woken up, today, I wish I hadn't woken up and just died, magiging masaya ako pag pinaglalamayan nako nang karamihan.

Because starting today my life will change. Malas na at hindi ko alam kung kailan ako ngi-ngiti. Dahil simula na malaman ko iyon hindi kona alam kung makakangiti pa ako.

"Ms. Davis, your so beautiful." They praised me, saying that they had finished fixing me.

Hindi nako magugulat na iyon ang sasabihin nila, syempre sila ang nag make up sakin malamang nagagandahan sila sa pag make up sakin. I looked at myself in the mirror, even though I wasn't smiling, even though my eyes were very sad, I knew, I had to admit, that my makeup was beautiful and the gown I was wearing brought me beauty.

But my beauty would be wasted when I faced it, because when I was there and walked around, I never smiled. Parang lumakad ako sa napakainit na lugar na impyerno.

"But Ms. Davis, you're even more beautiful when you smile, you shine when you smile, it's contagious." The make up artist said, sumang ayon naman ang isa. Tinignan ko sila dalawa at binalik din ang tingin sa harapan.

"I only smile when I get married at the right age, and I will only smile when I want someone to marry and never someone I don't want." I said na kinatahimik nilang dalawa. Peke akong ngumiti sa salamin na nakikita ko ang sarili ko pati repleksiyon ng dalawang make up artist.

Yes, ikakasal ako sa murang edad, I was just 18 years old na kagustuhan ng magulang na ikasal sa kapartner na anak na katrabaho niya, doon siya masaya para lang sa pera gagawin niya kahit nadadamay ang anak niya, kasi siya walang pakialam sa nararamdaman ko.

"Can you leave me alone for now?" I asked them. Nagkatinginan silang dalawa. Nandito kami sa kuwarto ko, gusto ko dito ako make-up-an.

"Sure, Ms. Davis." I didn't look at them and just looked in the mirror. I heard their footsteps outside and the door closing.

Huminga ako ng malalim, I looked at myself, I was wearing a big wedding white gown that was sparkling, I knew this gown was very expensive and I knew Zamora bought it for me, because the Zamoras are more well-known in the country and you can't refuse, so that's why dad accepted the proposal.

It adds to my beauty because of the shape of my face, my skin is light, my eyes are green, I'm half Russian and half Filipino, but we live in the USA, I grew up here when I was 8 years old, because I was born in the Philippines.

I still looked at myself in the mirror, others said I never tire of looking at myself, because of my beauty and the fact that many people are chasing me, but I can't understand why I ended up with a Zamora, yeah, they're stronger and richer.

Kahit malungkot ang mata ko, kahit sabihin nating ilang araw nako hindi makatulog at iniisip ang kasal na ito, at ngayon ito na ikakasal ako sa taong ayaw ko. Dahil iniisip ko ang pangarap ko ang kinabukasan ko.

Dahil hindi pumasok sa isip ko na mag pakasal na magkapamilya, dahil alam ko naman sa una lang masaya at unti-unting mawawalan ng interes sa isa't isa. Kahit mahal mo man yan, namamalayan mo nalang hindi mona siya hinahanap, dahil sa tagal na pag sasama, bigla nalang mawawala ng pakialam.

Because I experienced that in my family. Kaya iniwan ni Mommy si Daddy eh, kaya puro pera lang sa isip ni daddy at hindi kami iniisip kundi kayamanan lang. Dahil wala naman siya pakialam samin.

I stopped wiping my tears, yeah umiiyak na naman ako, umiiyak naman ako dahil iyakin akong tao. Iniisip ko palang yan tumutulo na ang luha ko, sobrang hina ko.