What I wish to be

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She's not innit anymore
Don't fight it, let it slide away
Don't strain yourself trying to pull her back
Let her drift into the sunset

The world will keep onspinning
The waves in crashing
You on growing and staying alive

It is what is
What it isn't it cannot be
The emotions are gone
And without emotions, only obligations remain

Sense the turning of the clock
Pinching the nerve at your back
Winding you up till your toes curl

I can predict her every move
I can even predict mine
I could even predict mine. Not anymore

Sims are simulation of reality
Also one of her favorite games
She might be a narcissist, angry and bitter at the world

I am a man who is trying to love
Despite never learning how to
I was spoiled all my life
Now I'm just trying to give back

I spent my time here spreading hate
And pain and sorrow and lies
Now I want to leave a mark
Cease the pollution before I'm gonne

There's no sidestepping the hate
It's as inevitable as life itself
But you can chose when to hurt
And when to stand your ground
If you truly know yourself
The difference is minimal
Pratically invisible. But major in significance

I am a man who tows the bell,
Sings the chorus of my joys
And my deepest fears I pushed down
Left at the well of despair
So I don't ruin no one else's mind

I am the man who declared war
On hatred and disfunction
And despite losing every day
It does not concern me
For battling is joy enough for me
To die with a sword in my hand
To look back and accept that I was stepped
But fought all along
No one else will see the struggle
No one else will recognize its merits
But I will know, I alone
And when death comes, I will smile

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