Forever Yours

Chapter Twenty Seven

Connor

Sal says I'll never see Ethan, and I'm starting to think she's right. I've been here for four months and I haven't seen him or anyone. It's making me feel utterly alone. Devin's madly in love with our Doctor, who seems to feel the same.

Sal is sleeping with almost everyone here as a big fuck you to her parents. She is suffering a lot, but won't open up.

Then there's me. I'm trying to hold on for Ethan and my kids. But it's really hard when I can't ever see or talk to them. Ethan said things aren't good there right now, and when i get back i shouldn't be surprised if everything was new.

Now I'm starting to wonder if this new life has room for me. Because it really, really feels like it doesn't.

I'm in the cafe with Sal who is talking about her newest victim. She said she slept with one of the nurses- a female. She's a little older than us, but a good nurse. "No- Connor" she huffs, pulling me closer. "I felt something for her," she shakes her head. "I can't. I only slept with her to see how it would be, but now? I'm too important to be anything but straight" she chews her lip.

"It'll be okay Sal" I grab my tray of food and move through the line, Sal on my heels. When we get through the line, we head to our usual table. We see Devin come in, his Doctor in stride next to him. They do look cute together.

Devin gets his food, and Sal and I continue to talk about her possible gay crisis. Devin slumps in his seat, a pout in place. Sal rants a bit longer, until she finally gets it out of her system. Then we move on to Devin.

"He said we won't work out. That he can't give up his job, and if i can't move then it's just not going to work out. But they don't want me released to anyone but my sister. They want me to be close to my support system"

"Tell your sister, see if she will move with you?" i suggest. "It might work. You said she works remotely, and you'd stay in the same state"

"I could kiss you, Connor Chase," Devin grins, and I shake my head. I stab some nasty dehydrated broccoli with my fork.

"Your turn" Sal says, and Devin turns back to me.

"It's been four months and Ethan hasn't come. No one has. It sucks. It's so freaking lonely"

"I wouldn't say no one came" A familiar voice says behind me. I turn around to see Xan standing there, his arms cross and a small smile on his lips. "And you're not alone, by the way" I squeal like a little girl. I throw my leg over the bench and throw myself at him.

Xan stabilizes us, and I cling to him like a little baby. "Ethan will be here tomorrow"

My stomach sinks and tightens, and I want to cry but throw up. "Then Sarah will be coming with Bran and the kids honey. We came as soon as we could" Xan squeezed me just as tight as I squeezed him.

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"The tour was nice, but i want to talk to you, not see everything" Xan sits on the edge of my bed, and glances at me.

"I missed you. I miss Ethan. The kids.." I swallow down my cry, "How is everything?"

"Ethan misses you.. A lot. He didn't do well at first, but he's doing a lot better now. Things with the pack have been a lot, but we're not gonna get into that right now. I miss talking to you and getting coffee with you" Xan nods. "How has the program been?"

"It's been okay, im completing it. I'm on track and i have been doing better. I haven't hurt myself since I've been here. I've had a couple black outs but I haven't in two months. My therapy sessions are good. I'm on a good medication combo honestly. It's not forever, but it will be a little long term. They say if i stay on track that we can talk about lowering the dosage when i leave"