Laxmi : His Moon

2. Meeting in Garden in Secret

Rajlaxmi's Pov: 

Tomorrow is Rajeshwari's wedding. I want her to lead a happy married life with her husband and be loved. Not end up like me doubting if her partner loves her or not. 

It has been a year now since I last him. Every day I wait for his one letter, every night I wait that he will break into my room like he used to do just to get a glimpse of me.

What has happened to him now?

 Does he still love me, or he found someone better? 

Now all I can do is pray to God that I can meet him again. Now I can only hope that my fears are not true. 

But what should I do when that single ray of hope that I had is now slowly fading? 

I was sitting silently beside my sister when I came out of my thoughts when I was pulled to dance. I plastered a bright smile on my face and went to dance. 

If I am sad because of Amar that doesn't mean I won't be happy for my sister. 

I started dancing and also sang. Dancers danced alongside me. 

When I was dancing and singing, I suddenly just raked my eyes all around the hall and noticed someone standing on the second floor, staring down at me. 

It was him. He was back. Finally. 

Suddenly my smile turned more natural as I was dancing and singing. 

At this point I was confused if I was dancing for my sister or in the happiness of him returning back. 

But I was also still in doubts if he loves me or not. And if he still does, then I am angry also. How dare he completely ignore me? How dare he not reply to my letters? At least one single letter from him in this one year would have not made me feel suffocated in my own home. 

I danced and sang while maintaining the eye contact with him. I ended my performance but at last singing something. 

"क्यों लौटे हो अब, बिना कहे जो गए थे,
मेरे दिल को यूँ तन्हाई में रख गए थे।
इतनी लंबी राह तकाई मैंने तेरी,
क्या अब मेरी मोहब्बत भी नहीं रही तेरी?"

"Why have you returned, after leaving me so?
Left my heart in silence, in endless woe.
I waited so long, through nights and days,
Do you no longer love me in the same old ways?"

I broke the eye contact but as soon as I did, I was showered with rose petals. I know he did this. 

A small smile appeared on my lips. 

I slowly glanced up only to not find him there. 

I smiled at my sister when she kept staring at me. She is doubting me! 

"What?" I asked with an awkward smile. 

"The song lyrics," She pointed. 

I slightly pinched her cheek and said "I did such a great dance for you and you complaining about the lyrics instead of praising me?" 

"Ow!  Ow! Don't pinch me didi! It hurts!" She said while pushing my hand away and I laughed at her reaction.

I moved aside so that she could see other women's dance too and enjoy. I slowly took steps back and got out of the crowd. I silently get out of the hall and make my way to my chamber.

I was walking quickly and wanted to not catch any attention, but my Ghungroo were not helping me much.  

I walked towards my chamber and guards opened the gate for me. As I enter inside, I closed the door behind me.