"Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me...Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing the very thing you gave to me"- Beyoncé, "Resentment"
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~ FANTASIA ~
I nervously fiddled with my fingers and paced back and forth in front of the door to Naomi's room as I was trying to work out in my mind how I would tell her that I no longer want her to attend Danielle's housewarming party with me. Taraji is going to be there, and with everything that happened between me and Naomi last night, the last thing I need is for them to run into each other. That would be an uncomfortable position to put Naomi in, and as Chloe's nanny and someone that I consider a close friend, I can't do that to her. I just hope she isn't too hurt or disappointed. She should understand where I'm coming from, but then again she's still in her 20's which means that she still has a lot of growing up to do, and she might not take this news as well as I want her to. I'm just going to give her the benefit of the doubt and have complete faith in her to be mature about the way I'm deciding to handle this situation. I finally mustered the courage to knock on her door. She came and opened it with Chloe in her arms. She was wrapped up in a fluffy pink towel like Naomi had just finished giving her a bath. She smiled her big gummy smile at me and I smiled back, pressing a kiss to her forehead that was swept with wet curls. Naomi was fully dressed with her hair and makeup done, and she looked so beautiful, making me feel even shittier for having to rain on her parade. This is why I don't do casual sex. Someone always ends up getting let down.
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Naomi: I just wanted to give her a bath before the sitter got here. Thank God I didn't get water splashed all over my dress. I want to look good on your arm.
Fantasia: About that...I um-I really don't know how to say this. Um I'm sorry Naomi, but-
Naomi: You don't want me to go to the party with you anymore.
Fantasia: Well, yeah. I just don't think it's a good idea anymore, considering what we did last night. I'm so, so sorry. It's just that my ex-wife is going to be there and I don't want to put you in a position to have to defend yourself. I appreciate everything that you do for me, honestly. I would be lost without your help. I don't regret what happened, because you're a beautiful girl and I feel really close to you, but I do regret the way it all went down. I wasn't really ready to open myself up like that, but I was desperate to fix my sexual frustration and you were so tempting. Still, that's no excuse. I'm older than you and you work for me, so I should have been the one to gain control of the situation before it got out of hand.
