Happy Again

Ivan..

    I remember, when I first saw you. I was taken away from my mother by an alien who adopted me. I was waiting in a room for something, and then I remember first seeing you. Those eyes that saw me with such gaze, I would never forget the time where I knew I would have a friend like you, Ivan.

   You were my greatest friend, my greatest hero. I should've known how much you wanted to show me how much you loved me. I guess I messed that up, huh? I never let you get to have the opportunity to show me the love you have for me and I know that hurts. I hope you can forgive me someday, Ivan. I never meant to hurt you and keep this burning pain that you have to keep since we were little.

    You memorized the way out of ANAKT GARDEN, you taught yourself how to escape and learn all the secret passageways. You could have escaped, but you were waiting for me. When you offered me to join you in escaping, I couldn't help but feel so eager to join and be free with you. But, there was this girl I admired so much, I just had to miss the opportunity to leave with you just so I can be with her. I guess, I was young and stupid.

  You were a fool. You weren't suppose to die first, I was. I was suppose to die first. Didn't you see how ready I was to die? Yet, you made it so that you would die. I hate you, Ivan. I hate you so much. I hate how I loved you too late. I should've loved you sooner!