I was walking down the street in Bronx,alone. Like literally, it was no one in the street. What they were saying? That New York was the wakeful city? Wakeful my ass… It was cold. I wasn’t scared. Something made me stop walking though. I heard a groan coming from my back. My heart started beating faster. I turned around and saw a woman dressed all in black. Her face when she saw me was like she saw a ghost. Was I that bad?
She started crying. I could see her pain in her greenish eyes. She got closer to me. I didn’t know what was happening. Not until she took out a knife and almost stabbed me. She would have if something or someone wouldn’t stopped her.
” Don’t do this to her, mom. You don’t know if it’s true.. Please don’t do it! ” I could swear I knew his voice.
” Yes I do. I’m sorry. ” What the fuck was going on? ” She is one of the five ” Those words… I was one of the five. I couldn’t think anymore ‘cause she did it. She stabbed me.
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I waked up with a scream and crying, fact that made Jax jump out of his side of the bed. It wasn’t the first time when this was happening, it was the 9th . Every time I was falling asleep I had this dream. It started just seeing the woman. Every night a little more was adding to that. I didn’t ask Jack to sleep in my room. He said he just wanted too. But I knew he was worried. The nightmares started after the night I’ve been missing and Jax was looking for me. That didn’t helped the fact that I hadn’t tell him where I was.
” Shhh… Don’t cry, I’m here” He pulled me into a hug and whipped away my tears. What would I do without him? He was my everything now and I just couldn’t blast that.
” What happened babygirl? Are you all right? ” I nodded.
” I am now… Thank you and I fucking love you. I don’t know what would I do without you.”
” It’s ok. I’m here and I will be forever.Just please don’t do it! Don’t cry again. I can’t see you like that.” Please don’t do it! The words kept crossing my mind. I flinched. The voice from my dream. I knew exactly why I acknowledged it. Because it was Jax’s. I stared at him for a while.
I decided to take a shower and clear my head ‘cause it felt like it was going to explode.After I finished I put on an oversize T-shirt and headed to the kitchen.Some random boxes were placed near the door.
” What’s with those?”
” Oh sorry, I forgot to tell you. Alexa is moving out..” Freaking bitch. So she really was stupid after all. She left me to live alone with her boyfriend. Huh, this girl was an idiot. Jax may be my best friend but that doesn’t mean I never looked for something more. The distance stand in my way though.That and…. oh fuck! How could I forget about Kai?! Damn it! I needed to find him.I needed to tell him how sorry I was. It wasn’t my intention to hurt him, but I did. And I felt awful for that.
” You ok? ” I nodded. But I wasn’t, my life was just so confusing.The black rose on Jax’s chest ant the one in my basket, the dream and Kai.
” So , you still ain’t gonna tell me where this nightmares came from? ”
” I don’t know. But can I ask you something? ”
” Yep. ”
” Tell me about your family.”
” My dad raised me by the age 10. Then I ran away ‘cause I couldn’t stand staying there anymore. ”
” What about your mom? ”
” I never knew her. She died when I was 6 months old. They said it was suicide. But I always thought it was my dad.” That makes total sense.
After breakfast with Jax I left the apartment. I decided to go and see if I could find Kai.
I got in Harlem in less than 15 minutes. Last time I was in New York, he was living on the streets. Great, where should i go now? There is one thing that I can do. I won’t enjoy it but I have to.
I knocked on Black’s door like 5 times before the housekeeper answered and let me in.
” Great to see you doll. How are you? ”
” Too bad I can’t say the same about you. And I’m fine. ”
” How is my baby? Is it a girl or a boy?” He wasn’t doing that. He was annoying me so bad.
” I’m not pregnant and you know it. I wanna see Kai. Where is he? ”
” You know, I can’t tell you that. It would be rude. If he wants to see you he will come to you. ” I stormed out of the house. This was pointless.
If I can’t have Kai then ok. But I will have him. Both of them. I was falling in love with two people. I needed Kai although he was never there. Jax was. And I always wanted him. I just need to figure it out how to do this. I didn’t know what should I do next. Too many feelings in my head. I can’t take it I need to find out what the dream means. And what the fuck has Jax to do with it. And who were the five. Why did my parents abandoned me? I had no explanation…
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Black roses and dark dreams
RomantizmHer whole life was turned upside down in one day. Now she has no idea who she is or who are her parents. She tries to stay focused and find out something about her family but it is really hard when the temptations keep showing everyday in her life...
