Little Bird

35.

Names.

I've been working ever since I've got memory.

I was trained to torture, to kill, to think.

Verdimonts case is no different than the ones I've done before.

Find the rat and kill it - simple.

But it's different knowing who the rat is.

Ever since I found out this morning I've been craving blood.

Mariano earned a black eye just because he said he'd call phoenix.

stronzo

I don't want to involve anyone on this , because I still don't know who the rat is working for - who are his allied.

To say the least, I've been repressing all the anger.
I was on my way to the gym when Mariano reminded me that Doctor Montgomery had come to check on my baby.

So I pushed through the check up - then il mío amore wanted to take her pictures.

Everything was fine - until it wasn't.

I don't know what happened, but the moment I heard her deny me - cazzo. I lost it.

She only wanted me to eat her - Adoro mangiarla, cazzo.
( I fucking love to eat her)

I lost control. All the anger I was bottling up came out in the wrong fucking time.

I gave into darkness- and I hurt her.

The moment I saw the tears, the pain.

I wanted to shoot my self.
It pains me to see her hurt - and it's all my fault.

After our bath we stayed in bed, cuddling each other.

We've been silent the whole time.
It's been three hours - it's the longest we've gone without talking while together.

Her delicate fingers are tracing my scars.

The silence was too loud.

"Riccardo"

Her hand stopped and she lift her head to look at me.

"Magdalena - if it's a girl" the names felt right.

Whenever I'm not in my office I've taken some time to think about names.

It's what has kept me focused this entire time - knowing why I'm doing this.

Just one last job, then - I'm disappearing with my family.
Cuz there's no fucking way I'm letting my child be born in the states.

She graced me with her beautiful smile.

"They're beautiful" she says.

"What about yours" I shifted - now laying on my side with my left hand on her waist.