Girlfriend

The Conflicts in my 'Mind'

I don't have a girlfriend,
But I want 'One',
I see others with their 'ones' having so fun.

But should I have 'it' is the thought
Do I deserve my life on hers?
Can I be her life plot.

This is one dream of mine that can't be true,
It's like an imagination which in reality
Is like a dangerous flue.

But can't the flue be harmless for me,
only if I understand the secret,
The bonding between
The rest future could be a cup of tea.

Girlfriends are not just to have fun with
You should always have something for them
If you can't, be ready, bear their anger
You get blamed for every promise you gave them for 'life'.
There you're not given to prove much
hence you become a 'great' Lier.

Then, but this thought hits my mind,
life would be boring 'without'
the things you feel hard to do.

Then again in my world of dreams I wander,
to find the one who matches my 'likely' choice.
I wish if I could get a girlfriend who 'asks'
not more than just love and feelings,
If she could reduce the burden on me, I 'could'
give her more than her 'dealings'.

I go 'again' to my 'grave' of dreams,
the work left is to get her out from there,
and bring it in reality.
Is it impossible, you say love is possible,
do I argue but you say I lost,
would I go for her, you say get lost!

Still, I get a bit of negativity, 'should I'
get a search of her,
'Or' just 'turn out' of her way as 'she'
'won't' be waiting 'forever'.

So, I just start preparing for this confusion,
I 'could' get out, but I 'can't' get out of this 'illusion'.

Should I? Would I? If yes, then how could I!