Little Bird

38.

Oh baby.

She black out.

Il mío amore passed out.

She just gave birth.

The baby in my arms cried while I stare at the one on the floor.

I had to put him down - I manage to wrap him with some towels and set him down when I saw the other babies head.

We never knew there were two. How is that possible?

My eyes darted between all.

The boy on the floor, my girl on the bath and the other boy in my arms.

My head was spinning.
A knot forming on my chest.

"Where the fuck are you?" I seethed.

"The rain capo" she excuse herself.

Cazzo.

I quickly wrapped the baby with a towel and set him down next to his brother.

Turning my attention to il mío cuore.
I don't know how much time has been.

I felt like like my brain was about to explode.

I hold her shoulders " amore " I slap her cheeks .

She didn't respond.

" cazzo amore rispondimi" i raised my voice.
(Fuck baby answer me)

I check her pulse - it's weak.

No.

" No no, non puoi lasciarmi"
(No you can't leave me)

I lower my head and put my ear on her chest - trying to hear or feel something.

Her heartbeat is slowing down.
Merda.

No no no.

"Boss" i hear doc to my side.

"I'm here let me check on her" doc pushed me to the side.

I just sat there seeing doc and Mariano trying to wake il mío cuore.

I look at the babies - they're the reason she's not waking up.

If I lose her...

"I don't have a pulse - quick help me get her out"

I felt like a thousand knives stabbed me in the heart.

This can't be happening.

I saw Mariano set her down on the floor. Doc make quick motion to start cpr.

I felt cold - the babies kept crying.

"Capo take them away" doc yelled at me.

But I couldn't move. I felt as is the ground was swallowing me.
I saw her face fall to the side.

Her once sweet delicate features full of happiness were now drown in darkness - pale and fragile.

Open your eyes....

This can't be happening, she can't - she can't leave me.

"Give me the machine" doc instructed to Mariano "on my count"

The electric shocks didn't work.

I couldn't bare it.

So I ran - I ran outside.

"Capo!" I heard Mariano's distant yell.

I can't.

She left me.

It's their fault.

My bare feet hit the cold, muddy ground.
The storm roar in the sky.
The debts of the nigh swallowed me.

I won't live if she's not with me.

I dropped to my knees letting out a deep scream - coming strong from the depths of my heart.

"I cant!" I screamed.

"Non posso vivere senza di lei" the rawness of my screaming burned my throat.

(I can't live without her)

The rain poured down.

"Take me - not her"

Suddenly I remembered- pulling out the small pocket knife from my jeans.

I stare at the knife - it mocks me.

"There is no life without you in it amore"

I bring the knife up - ready to stab my heart.

"Put I down!" I heard her voice.

It's an illusion. She's gone.

One...

"Arsenio!" She's calling for me.

I'm coming amore.

Two...

"We will be together again"

"Shut up!" She screamed on my face.

I opens my eyes and there she was.
A towel wrapped around her - she's on her knees I front of me.

With weak hands she took the knife from my hands and throw it away.

She was pale and weak.

She then slapped me, hard.

"Don't you dare leave me!" She screamed at me.

She wraps her arms around me.

I hugged her back.

"Pensavo di averti perso" a say against her neck.
(I thought I lost you)

"I thought I'll loose you" she countered.

I picked her up and head inside straight to the bathroom.
I could hear distant crying -but my focused right know is my love.

I got us into the shower.sitting down on the bench with her on my lap.

I washed her, then me.
After our shower I took u to our room.
I walk into the closet and search for her pijamas.

Once I got them I dressed her.

" you scared me" her sweet whispers filled my heart.

" I thought I lost you - I won't live in a world without you in it"
I cupped her face.

"Perché tu amore mio, sei il mio mondo"
(Because you my love, are my world)

Her eyes filled with tears.

I connected our lips.

"Ti amo" I said against her lips.

"Ti amo Arsenio"

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Okayyy

But Can you blame him?
He was traumatized.

It really hurt writing this 🥺

One more chapter y'all 🫶🏻

Also remember Cel's dream??? 😧
If not then go read chapter 1

Let me know what you think 💭

Anywayssssss
See u next chapter ✨

Xo Nonna 🧝🏻‍♀️