FORGIVE ( h. ryo )

seven

Ryo felt as if he was living in a dream, reliving the happy family life he once had. He thought in bliss. The day was spent in laughter and joy. They talked and joked around as a family, what more could he want, than this?

It was now 11 pm and they were all back at their staycation home. Ryo was sitting alone in the living room at this hour. Letting the darkness engulf him as he stares at the night sky outside. Watching the stars that shined at this time, he hoped to see if there was a shooting star at this hour. Maybe he could wish upon a star. Wish for another cupid to get this job and fix him and his family. Maybe if he wished upon a cupid, then he'd be able to feel at peace.

"There you are."

Someone called out as Ryo looked behind to see Renjun's figure walking through the darkness. His older brother walked closer before he sat down beside him.

"I was wondering where you were. You weren't in your bed." Renjun stated as the boy only stays quiet.

"Sorry. I just have a lot on my mind right now." Ryo answers him quietly. His unusual tone making Renjun look over at him with one of his brows raised.

"Do you want to talk about it? It's been a while since the two of us had any time for ourselves to just talk. You've always listened to my worries. Won't you let me do the same to you?" Renjun says before smiling at him softly. His statement somehow was able to make Ryo feel so defeated. He felt his eyes stinging, he was sensitive, he always knew this. But he shuts his eyes closed and took a deep breathe as he tries to contain his tears. Ryo looking forward before letting out a small laugh.

It was true that he was always there to hear his brother's worries. He was always there to listen to any of his family members problems. But no one did the same to him. Was it because he was the youngest child that he always felt alone. The more he tries to talk to his siblings, all of them were busy with their own lives that they had no time for him.

"I'm just a bit overwhelmed Injunnie-ge from today... I'm overwhelmed because I'm so happy that we're able to spend time together. I'm glad, that I have you all with me right now. I... know that I'm really sensitive, but I just always feel so lonely whenever I'm at home." He mutters whilst clenching his trembling hands. He then looks over at his older brother before grinning at him. 

Renjun was a bit taken aback. The million smiles that Ryo has flashed him, this one seemed so painful.

"Juyi.." Renjun whispers before he pulls his brother into his embrace. He caresses the back of his head gently.

"I didn't know that you felt that way. I've always known that I was a bit selfish because I only cared about myself that I failed to realise how others around me felt, espcially my own family members. To be honest with you, I was a bit reluctant at first to come on this trip because I felt as if we all wouldn't have gotten along well like how we used too. But you're always the one that's trying to get everyone together. I see your efforts and I'm so grateful for that, truly. Thank you for not giving up on our family. I also know that the reason why our family even grew apart from each other was because of me." Renjun then takes a deep breathe before sighing.

"I pushed you all away when I was going through my worst. Everyone tried to reach out but later gave up because I was a lost cause. But you never stopped trying to reach out to me, you never gave up on me because you always tried to see the good in people, and you always stayed by my side. How could I ever say no to this family trip if I knew that you really wanted this so badly? You know Juyi, I'm glad that you were the last adittion to our family. You're the reason why this family is still together, and I'll always be grateful that you're my younger brother." 

How was Ryo not supposed to breakdown. He punches Renjun's chest lightly as he pushes him away before glaring at him.

"Stop trying to make me cry." He says in furry as it made a blarring laugh escape Renjun's mouth. "But thank you for saying that Injunie. I needed to hear those words." He then smiles brightly. His smile equivalent to the shimmering stars in the sky.

The two guys then stared out the window as they enjoyed stargazing.

"Are you done packing all of your stuff back in the apartment Injunie?" Ryo broke the silence as he hears his brother hum in reply.

"I'm nearly done. Just need to pack all my clothes now." He answers.

"What are you going to do with the apartment then?" Ryo then asks as Renjun looks at him.

"Not sure. I was just going to give it to you, if you wanted to still live there."

"You know that I don't like being by myself." He laughs lightly as Renjun looks at him seriously.

"Why don't you ask Sakuya if he wants to move in with you and the two of you could become roommates? He'd be eighteen by the end of the year." Renjun suggested as Ryo thought about it.

"That doesn't sound like a bad idea. I'll think about it." Ryo answers as it made his brother smile. The lad then messing up his hair.

"I don't want you staying in the family home. Yujin and Yifan are going to be moving out one day. Yujin probably won't be at home for a long time." Renjun stated before staring blankly outside.

His statement confusing Ryo. What does he mean by that? Does he know something about Yujin that he didn't?