Hi, I'm Aeya, and this is my testimony.
What kind of life do I have? Ang alam ko ay hindi ako pinanganak na mayaman. Mahirap ang buhay ko. There were so many times I fell, stumbled, cried 'til daylight, jumped out of joy, felt at peace, and felt nothing, and then the cycle continued. My life is not perfect. Sa sobrang daming paghihirap, umabot ako sa puntong kinamuhi-an ko siya. I hated God. I disliked everything about Him. I ran away towards the unknown. It was so dark, misty, silent, empty, and painful... My resentment continued to grow as various kinds of hurdles and hardships went my way. Darkness begrimed me. I looked up once and got mad at how bright the starlight was. I blamed everything on Him.
As I walked barefoot and lost, the pain pierced me so hard that a thought slid so fast into my mind, but quickly vanished. That tiny thought cried His name. I hated Him, but there was a moment when my soul cried His name. I was hanging on, and I couldn't feel Him near. I was about to let go. The feeble strength left in me was finally losing its grip. It was until my hand finally lost its hold. I closed my eyes so hard, afraid to see the end as I approached it. And I couldn't understand... I waited for the most painful fall I would have, but my body remained unshaken. I was embraced so tight, but I didn't feel suffocated, and I could not see who it was. In the next few seconds, I felt His shoulders shake as He embraced me tighter. I could not utter a word to describe what I felt. He was crying...
"Even if you hate me, I will never let go of you. I love you, my child."
God whispered, and there was no darkness anymore. Most mysteriously, my heart was safely undone. My body felt limp, but my heart and soul became alive. I felt His peace and fell into His love.
"No matter how far we may stray, His love never gives up on us. I thank Him now for the hurt and days of pain. It was just what I needed."
Jeremiah 29:11:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you hope and a future."
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Non-Fiction"For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will." Ephesians 1:4-5
