her thought's we're screaming loud. but much louder then usual she looked inside her mirror with tears streaming down her face and started making funny faces saying ''You're fine, nothings wrong'' you're alright, you have a perfect life theirs nothing to cry about'' twenty minutes later she's lying on her floor still crying, starring at her ceiling still saying. ''You're fine, stop crying'' over and over again.
the next day comes, she's still in the same spot before starring at the ceiling and sitting on her floor crying. ''YOU'RE FINE, STOP CRYING!'' She yelled, her voice was broken up. she could yell all she wanted but it would still not come out right. only in gasps coughs and hiccups.
she then started yelling again ''I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being such a selfish child, I'm sorry for not being perfect, I'm sorry for being sad..I promise I won't bother anyone anymore''
finally letting herself cry ,after two days of none stop pain she let go, and let herself cry. also accepting why she even felt this way. she wrote down what she wished she could say to someone, the note saying
''Maybe it would be better off if I wasn't alive, I could be at peace for once.. but if I did do that people would only assume I killed myself because I didn't get what I wanted. maybe I could tell someone I know without worrying I'm bothering them when I start crying. but that's impossible because I already know I bother them, each time I cry in-front of them I get yelled at''
all her thoughts she wrote down we're all maybes with a never to be answer. then she thought something through. ''ill just in here weir I can never bother anyone except myself'' she smiled.
