December 6 2024
Not once have i ever felt bad about not having a chance with someone because things just dont align. Until you, i guess.
Maybe its the fact that i never actually will get the chance to ever be the object of your love or affection. Maybe its the fact that, even after everything, we really were just strangers.
But god, it didnt sink in until now how much my feelings for you actually weigh. You never really know howmuch you want someone until you know you can never have them. Its an absolutely delibitating and self depricating feeling. Like every time ithink about it, i know an ounce of my self respect disappears.
Does it hurt?? I dont even know. Its just an absence of something and the presence of another thing.
Like i dont know if i long for you or if i long for what we could have been if only you had liked me back. I dont think i even liked you that much. But i gues you really did actually drive me crazy. Like actually. God i hope you dont find this
