Choosing Forever
Sometimes I feel so lost and alone,
Every muscle is aching, and every bone.
The clocks are ticking, my time is running short,
I didn’t follow when his boat left the port.
Now I am dying, too proud to find him,
My eyes are dull, the colors are dim.
The blues of the skies, the greens of the grasses,
I watch the vibrance of life as it passes,
I wish I’d taken the chance when I had it;
Thrown my cares to the wind for together we fit.
We were so in love… I hope he’s happy now.
I hope I’ll see him again somehow.
I’ve never believed in heaven or hell, but now it’s life’s end,
And I begin to think it isn’t just pretend.
The light is blinding,
The darkness is binding,
I cannot move for fear,
From my eyes there falls a single tear.
It trickles its way, tracing my features,
And as it falls I remember life’s teachers.
They talked a lot about living,
They taught all about giving,
But never did they speak of one such as I,
Never of an old woman wishing to die.
I stare into the light, so pure and so bright,
And I stare into the darkness, and it fills my sights.
I hear the music more clearly than ever,
And I know it’s time to choose my forever.
