this was the first time that I was literally afraid and confused of what should I do, I suck at taking decisions, and I always do the opposite.
I didn't know whether to get into the house or wait till dad figures it out...
I thought: if I went inside he'll think I was going out with guys and my mean neighbors would say it was true, so they can revenge from me.
Over the pranks I've always did for fun.
I thought: if I stayed outside he'll also think that I got drunk with my friends. and that could hurt nancy if she knew that I was lying at him, cause they will never trust my bestfriend.
my dad... Is strict, suspicious, and mysterious, and tuff.
my all-time-wish is to have that goddamn time machine, since everyone is talking about it..
cause I need.. to explore things, get out of the miserable circle and think out of the limits.
my name is Vanessa, V refers to
• vaporous
• veracious
• VIGOROUS
• villainous
I didn't feel comfortable till I had a strong heartbeat, telling me it's time to be fearless.
trying to get into a trouble is kinda big, but it's gonna be a history.
I made failure matter, to feel fearless.
I'm the one who takes risks to discover and make my life worth having a meaning and stop fear.
comforting myself with the spell I create.
the only fail feeling you may get is not trying to make the " great mistake " and the hole in your chest tattooed with the word
" regret "
Success is complecated, not like what do people think, it's like storms.. " dangerous and white."
I respect the rules, but I know if I loose some I will be pretty wise.
Once I break'em, I'll have fun too.
Once I break'em, I'll only forgive.
Just break them all! be crazy, a flirt, mean, honest, sassy, or whatever.
youre stronger than the chains, this is the freedom wings I think about.
I opened the door fast, and close it slowly when I entered inside,
no footsteps, I tried to be careful of not let anything fall on the ground,
once I almost reached my room, walking on my toes, my dad's alarm rang loudly and I swear I started feeling sweaty, like a thief stole something expensive from a store, I ran... I imagined myself running on a hamster wheel, exactly like that.
after I got into my room, I sighed.
WHY DO THE FUCKING DOCTORS RUINS EVERYTHING GIVING MY DAD WRONG TIMINGS TO TAKE HIS MEDICINES .. ASSHITS!! HOW DO THEY CALL THEM DOCTORS WHEN THEY JUST LET US WAKEUP FROM A HAPPY SLEEP TIME LIKE DRUNKS GOING TO SCHOOL AND JUST TAKE THE WEIRD TABLETS , such maniacs.
someone entered the room, said
" You're insulting my job . "
" oh dad I was talking bout other doctors, they need a therapy too. "
took a huge breath.
" why you're still not wearing your pjs ?" he looked at me.
" aaaa , aa this is my pjs " *holds smth beside me on bed*
" this is not a pjs, this is a blanket. "
" Okay dad I was tired and slept a lot that I forgot to wear my pjs, great explanation? Needs more ? you're a doctor, treat me like a normal human, not like- "
" like what? "
" like a DOG, pfsh I'm just sick, a kind of sick that doesn't have a medicine, so please dad good night, you can close the door now.. "
" you never had enough.. you're a girl, but you're still a pain in my ass. "
" fine.. supposed to be sad for this? I don't think so .. Hush, I need to sleep "
" goodnight!! forever a bad teenager, stay like this you'll never find your man in the next few years !! YOURE FOREVER ALONE JUST READING ON YOUR BED WITH NO FRIENDS ." he shuts the door after he was yelling.
I close my eyes, I pretended there's no noise, one day I'll prove everybody wrong and move high like a skyscraper, freaking them out when I say " remember when you said that I can't - " let them remember every bad thing they've done, let them know whom is the Fallen Dark Angel.
I kept myself positive searching for the good, I knew, if I was an ant living on grass there's always somewhere greener.
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