Being normal or average has never been a problem for me.
I like knowing that I'm sort of invisible but not all that invisible. I blend into the woodwork but still stand out in an odd way.
My life is pretty much amazingly boring.
At this moment I'm in my all white virginal bedroom feet propped up on the headboard of my four poster bed, listening to an assortment of music.
I sighed as Corrine Bailey Rae song Trouble sleeping came on.
I would have trouble sleeping yes, but not because I'm in love or falling in love.
More like I'm far far away from meeting a boy and falling in love kind of worries.
Typical nerd right , I know why am I sulking at home when I could be out and about shaking it down with the kids in town.
Unfortunately I was born to an overly protective mom.
I'm not allowed to stay out late at night , and I must be home before the clock strikes 8.
But please don't take pity on me, because I'm no Cinderella , I stopped believing in fairy tales ages ago.
Ever since I started on the monthlies mom has been giving me the talk along with her life story thrown in.
I know she's only looking out for me and doesn't want me to make the same mistakes she did , but let's face it I'm no where near to acquiring a boyfriend much less going all the way with one.
And besides I'm not that naive , I don't know what the big deal is about losing your virginity before you leave high school , I for one am not that hype to have sex , I've heard the horror stories of some first timers and it totally turned me away from going down that road.
All I would like to experience is the getting to know you stage , the hand holding , and maybe a kiss or two.
I seriously hope I get to enjoy that someday.
"Chirp, chirp"
I rolled over and picked up my phone as it began to ring , checking the screen I saw it was my missing limb Lisa.
"Hey what's up" I said smiling.
"Terri , ghere are dou? , this phary is offsh gthe hook, woooo!"
I pulled the phone from my ears as she screamed her lungs out.
I placed it back when she was finished "OK drunkin munkin, get a grip I can smell your alcohol induced breath through the phone."
"Where the hell are you Lisa , do you need me to bail you out again"
She laughed rather drunkenly "No Kylie babysh gonna shake mez home, Kyle Kylie Kylie , came sthalk shoy Terri "
I began to protest "No , no not Kyle ............ You told me you guys were over , frig don't tell me you hooked up with him again , listen to me Lisa , Lisa don't put Kyle on , I don't want to ta..........."
"Hey babe , what's up" Kyle came on , I rolled my eyes.
"Kyle you dip shit, you're gonna take Lisa home before she gets in tro..., click"
"Hello , hello Kyle " He hung up on me.
That asshole, I threw my phone on my bed and plopped down after it.
I groaned into my pillow , its really frustrating when Lisa goes out drink and get herself drunk and I'm not there to protect her.
I don't even know where the damn party is .
I tried calling her phone again but no one picked up , I'm so gonna kill Kyle if anything happens to Lisa.
"Knock knock" My mom rapped on my door.
"It's open mom"
She poked her head in "Why are you still awake Terri, you do know you have school in the morning "
"I know mom I was just taking care of some things"
She raised her brow "like what?"
"School things mom , school things don't get all suspicious"
"I hope so , and I hope you're not hiding anything from me"
I groaned "Mom I'm not hiding anything , now will you please leave me alone"
"I will go but if I find out that you're lying you know what will happen "
"Mom , seriously you're threatening me , I told you I'm not hiding anything and you don't have to pound it in , I'm aware or the consequences of lying"
"As long as you know" with that she left my room.
I screamed into my pillow to let my anger out after i calmed down , i got up turned off my music and lights. And lie back down with a sigh , I hope Lisa will be fine tonight , that good for nothing boyfriend of hers better take her home safely tonight.
I can't believe she's back with him but they have had an on again off again relationship that I'm just sick of seeing Kyle hurt lisa countless times , to say that I like Kyle would be a total lie , I really can't stand him but I try and act civilised towards him for Lisa's sake.
I turned on my side and snuggled into my bed to get comfortable . I slept with a very troubled mind that night.
