asylum|N.H|

sucide note and being found

Embers p.o.v

Im Ember 16 years old black hair blue eyes and worthless everyday is a struggle for me so ive decided to end it im not strong enough to live in this world anymore honestly I never have been it seemed I had only been holding on by a thread but that thread has finally been broken and I feel free

I sit at my desk and write a note

Dear mom
Im sorry I always embarrassed you with the cuts on my arms and with being your only ugly child I was never good enough... ever you always told me I mattered to you but I never truly believed it I will miss you most of all I love you
Dear luke
You always seemed to put a smile on my face rather it was on purpose or accidentally you where the only one I could go to with my feelings and I trust that you will keep all my secrets, secrets I love you luke you where the brother I wish I always had when my dad was around you taught me to forgive and forget and I did until now all the memories have flooded back into my brain and I let you down im sorry
Dear rick
I hate you words cant describe how much I hate you you beat and raped me numerous amounts of times and I never told my mom I always wanted her to be happy and I think that she needs to know this now you are the worst person ive ever met in my life fuck you burn in hell

I finish writeing the note and stuck it on the bathroom counter I walked to my closet and put on my favorite black dress and walked to the bathroom

I grabbed the pills and the blade
Cut, pill,cut,pill,pill,pill,cut,cut,cut
I cut my arms about ten times and swallow about 20 pills cluthing the note in my bloody hand

"Ember"oh no luke he's banging on my door "luke please just go away" "no ember whats going on are you hurting yourself Ember" "I love you luke" "oh fuck" he said probably figureing out what im going by now

*crash* he knocked down the door "no luke please let me die" "never"
He picks me up easlily and I start crying "no please stop let me die please luke" "why Ember" "I cant luke stop please" he raced down to his car putting me in the back seat and started driveing to what im guessing is the hospital

My vision started getting fuzzy "luke" I called out " just hold on where almost there"he said in a panicky voice But by now I had almost completely blacked out "i love you" "no stay with me come on where almost there" he screamed
I struggled to keep my eyes open but in the end everhthing went completely black