More than We

Part 1/ Tbt to Robin's birthday

You should probably know this before we start off with my story that I'm not some goody girl you meet in most of the books. Neither am I some AA rebel deliquent. I like to smoke cigarettes I drink more than some sailors but I also enjoy reading good books and watching dorky things.

The most recent telenovela worthy drama started two days into my final summer break as a high school student.
It was Robin's 18th birthday and as always with his parties absolutely everyone is invited. Well this year it was everyone but me.
Robin and I used to be best friends, or maybe I should say that he had many female best friends but I was his favourite to get drunk with.

He was one of the few people whom I trusted and who knew about my bisexuality and still didn't treat me any different. Unlike Hannah, whom used to be my person until the very beginning of high school and hated me for unknown reasons til the end of it.

I'm still quite sure it was her who told you not to invite me. She probably told a couple of lies along with it too but whatever I still came to your party.

One of the reasons why I decided to come was Tommy, the blond sweet guy whom I knew had a crush for me. Maybe it was wrong from me to agree with his invitation to a party when I didn't had any more than friendly feelings for him.

The party itself was great as always, I got drunk enough to relax and have a good time and I spent most of the time outside either smoking or hanging out with smokers because this was the only place I knew Hannah wouldn't come.

It was already dark outside which probably ment it was way past midnight when Robin stepped first outside. It wouldn't be odd if I didn't knew him as a chain smoker, but I guess his need for love was greater than his need for nicotine stick.

I don't really remember what we talked about in there, outside your long waited birthday party, all I knew was that it took us 5 cigarettes to stop silently and gaze the bright stars in total silence.

I think it was around then when all the alcohol and nicotine in my organism started to work because all I remember from that moment on are scenes from a low budget movie.

I remember how Hannah screamed at us for sitting outside and how I was the biggest hoe she has ever know and how I made all guys cheaters and dramatic shit like that. And I remember Tommy blaming me for breaking his little heart or something like that.

The next nonblurry thing which I clearly remember is how Me and Robin are sitting on the river shore watching sunrise and sharing a bottle of white wine.

He's drinking Frank Sinatra to me with his amazing voice and first time in our relationship I find myself thinking about kissing you.