My Qeep Romance

He Is Everything

I was in my room, it was like any other boring old day. I was on my tablet and got on qeep this place where u can make new friends and whatnot. So as i was surfing through profiles I found one that spoke to me and the name of this profile was VERSE.CHORUS.VERSE. His name shall not be disclosed but all i have to say is man did we hit it off.

We talked forever, we talked about music, movies, you name it. We became close and I felt that I could tell him any and everything. He became one of my best and most valued friends. I looked forward to talking to him every single  day it was the one thing I had to look forward to all day long.

When I was at home it was all I could do not to go crazy waiting to talk to him. I would have to wait til everyone was asleep to talk to him. We usually talked from 11pm to frickin 4-5am we made plans to skype. 

We would talk about my winnie the pooh bear and i took picture of me holding said bear and showed them to him. He called me Natty it was like him giving me a nickname was a sign that we were going to be friends forever. 

We talked nonstop for months. We quoted movies to each other and talked about out family's. He would make me feel like the only person in the world that mattered in that moment was me.

I wanted nothing more than to meet him in person. I wanted to be able to hug him, hold his hand, smack him upside the head of he was being ridiculous. I wanted it so bad and I didn't understand why.

I told some of my friends and well they were very supportive of my liking him. But me being me my happiness can never last long but we'll get to that later.

One day while me and him were talking he was telling me to watch Grease because I had said that I'd never watched it. It was his favorite movie and he said the second one was terrible. I tried to defend the sequel to a movie I'd never seen saying it was probably an okay movie. I didn't watch right away because I'm lazy.

One night While we were talking about food I realized something insane, I had fallen in love with him. I didn't know it until we started talking about spaghetti and how we could cook it like bosses. Of course I didn't tell him right away I wanted to be sure.

Then when I was sure I told him how I felt. To say it went well is the truth. He said he liked me back just not to the extent that I loved him. But here's the catch, he told me he had a girlfriend. He said he was really  diggin' me and that he knew he shouldn't be. He then suggested that all we do was friendly flirt and me being me took whatever I could get.

And boy did we friendly flirt. Heheheheee, we were all flirty but nothing so bad that it'd have been him cheating on his girlfriend. 

But then just when I was at my happiest somebody had to ruin it. I person started to talk to him about dumping his girlfriend for me. He said he wasn't a douche and I knew that he wouldn't agree to what that person had said.

We were still after that and we still talked. But then another person had to interfere and well he was starting to become wary of talking to me. 

One night said person started talking to him while I was somewhere else and well he deleted me. Of course not wanting to let go I tried to get him back and said I was sorry up and down but he's soo stubborn and well he said he didn't want to talk to me anymore and blocked me.

To say I was devastated would be an understatement. 

I cried for months. I wouldn't sleep, I wouldn't eat unless it was to keep up the appearance that I was happy. I would sit in bed and hold my Winnie the Pooh bear thinking of him. I watched Grease and Grease 2 like 50,000 times crying if I watched it alone because I missed him like hell. 

I wanted to tell him everything I thought about the movies and the recent events of my life. I wanted to talk to him about crappy people, Mel Brooks films, and food. I wanted to make him laugh I wanted him to make me laugh.

I wanted nothing more than to just be able to say hi. But as my life would have it I can't be happy for very long.

I went from boyfriend to boyfriend. I fell in love yes but never the way I loved him. I did love someone more than him though but that was a girl and she and I were still friends. I have  boy I love now but never the way I love him.

He was my other half the other part of me, he was my happiness and my heart and he was gone. I wanted to die. If I had had him through the recent events with my family I would never have ended up in the hospital. 

I would have been able to talk out my feelings instead of bottling them up. He would have made me laugh and smile and forget all about the pain. 

But sadly life doesn't always work out that way and I went to the hospital and I didn't laugh and forget. I didn't let me feelings out completely and I was unhappy. I was more depressed than ever before and through that whole time all I could think about was him and what he would say to me.

I've missed him so much in these past few months and it's hard to think about him now.

But recently I've talked to someone he is close to. He relayed a message for me and we talked he got to know me and thankfully liked the person that I am. He told me that the person had changed his account and Verse.Chorus.Verse wasn't a profile anymore. He told me that said person had friend requested me and that I'd missed it. To say I died would be lying. I didn't just die I went to hell. I cried soo hard my head hurt and I couldn't breathe.

But since I had the hope that he wanted to talk to me again I went looking for his new profile. I searched through thousands of profiles til I found him and when I did I cried again but because I was happy. I sent him a friend request and he accepted it. I was sooooo excited.

We didn't talk and still haven't yet but when we do I'm not letting go ever again. I finally have my best friend back and I'm never loosing him again not now not in three years from now and not even when I'm old and gray. He's too important to loose and I'm gonna hold on tightly.

                                                                                            THE END

   This is a true story everything is true and has been very painful to relive. But for all of you          whoever has had the same experience just know you'll find each other again.