I saw the lime light that struck the midnight of silence. In my despair to walk away from the noisy buzzing of cities, I hide in one of the unknown places of the land, the grave. There I met the wonderful girl of her times yet forgotten in the revolution. She talks lots of things that reminded me that she was once my companion in my younger years. She speaks so much of herself and her youth. She speaks without any interventions. She glides as if there’s no rule living in her. She seeks for adventures, forgetting about the forbidden. She dances in the air leaving me alone again.
I continue my walks and in my way, I met this guy. He wore the tattered uniform that I really hated to look at. He smiles at me but pain and sorrows reflect in his eyes. We talk and talk but only keep on repeating his words. Unlike the girl, his words are uniformed. His moves are in numbers. He talks about others and none of it talks about his self. We stop on our walks, and then he asked me “what is it in the world that you hated the most?” I can’t find any answers, so I just told him “maybe the noise.” He smiled at me, continued his walks and he disappeared.
I feel my knees are already tired. I saw a bench nearby with dry flowers everywhere. I found that place comfortable so I went there and tried to take a nap. In the middle of my snores, someone woke me up. An elderly woman stands at my side begging if she could share with my blankets. The blanket is old and a little dirty but I didn’t mind. I really don’t know where that blanket came from but seeing the old woman freezing I just smile and let her in. she gave me a rose and told me a story about a young girl. The girl who lost her smiles when she lost him in the middle of the revolution. She told me that the girl was once her strength whenever she’s down, but the moment he disappeared, she then lost her smile and later on lost her life. I was astounded for the first time. I never realized that it was me she was talking about until she smiles at me. She faced me with so much tenderness in her eyes and says “My girl, it doesn’t mean that if you lose everything means you’ll break down. Sometimes, it is the reason for you to stand up, gather all your strength and have your courage to continue on your walks. Learn how to love yourself so much than before. Learn how to fight all your struggles in life. Never let yourself live in pain and in sorrow. Value everything that you have now and be contented with it. Turn around and you’ll see there are still people who keeps on loving you and never stops believing in you.” She left me speechless after she said those words. My tears begun to flow but it never make any sound. Something hit me. I am now on my worst state.
I woke up. I am still alone here in this room of mine. The darkness still never changed. I then realized that I lived in darkness for a very long time now. I stare at the picture on my bedside table. I smiled and I promised him, “I will fix everything for you.” I stand up, draw the curtains and let the rays of the sun fills the room. I felt alive. I saw a phrase written on a worn out board near the window, “I HATE RULES. SMILE AND EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE”. I then realized that it is not the noise that I hated the most but the rules that keeps me from doing what I want.
