Queen of a Kingpin

You and I

1 month later

Keisha

"Drew move go by your girlfriend ""I am by her ""My name is not Ashlen " I continued to put on my makeup and I had on a Aztec skater dress. "You not goin no where ""last time I checked I been single for a month ""but I'm the one hittin it every night ""your point is ""you still mine ""your name is no where to be found on me ""but I made my mark last night and I can tonight "he wrapped his arms around me. The door bell rung. Drew went straight to the door. It was Keira and Tahari. We did our lil scream. I twerked on them."yass turn up ""all that ass mami, somebody gettin a new nigga tonight."we high fived "nun of that shit bring ya ass home at 12""don't you have a bitch to tend to ""yup but ya mama ain't call me back yet "him and Tahari hated eachother with a passion. "Ok yall lets go "we were about to leave when Drew pulled my arm "she'll meet yall in the car " they nodded and left. Bitches. "What ""Baby why can't you just take me back ""not tonight ok ""Why not tonight ""because I don't wanna talk to you ab-" he crashed his lips to mine. His hands slid up my dress. "You love me ke " I nodded as he kissed my neck. I felt my undies go down, thats where I stopped him. "Stop it I have to go "I fixed my clothes and make up. I can't believe I went that far. Now I'm bothered.I walked to the door and he smacked my ass. "Asshole ". I went to the car and got in. They smiled at me. "What ""we saw yall nasty asses "'"oh my gawd really ""He was finna divvvveee innnnn " they said singing like Trey "He was not ""our eyes says other wise "we laughed. We drove to this new club called Red Velvet. Its was packed as shit. "Girl isn't that Twan at the door ""shit it is come on so we don't have to wait in line. "We quickly got out and ran in our heels as best we could. "TWANNN "he turned around and laughed at us runnin to him. "Sup sis "he hugged me "hey can we go in with you ""sure if you givin some "he brushed his hand across my ass "nevermind we will wait "I turned away. "I'm just kidding... maybe.. come on "he grabbed my hand. We walked in and all eyes were on us. I let go his hand. "Thanks T ""Anytime Ke "he winked at me and walked away the girls and I went to the bar. We got our drinks. "We goin dance you comin ""nah I'll stay here ""ok then. "They walked off and I just looked around. This guy kept staring at me. He looked familiar but I couldn't really see with the lighting. He got up walking towards me. He was chocolate too just yass. He got closer..It was Jay. "Heyyyy Jay ".I got up and hugged him. "Wassup ma how you been ""I been great have Three boys ""Thats wassup You heard about the boys not bein mine or JJ's ""no I didn't but I thought they were yours ""she messed with the results ""Thats good right you and JJ can have a better relationship" we sat down and I got three more drinks. I was pass drunk. "Wanna dance " I nodded. I was dizzy but I was like still there somewhere. We danced for a while and then we walked to his car. We drove and laughed and talked. We came to a stop. We got out his car. I stumbled and fell. "Ooowwwwww my pinky toooooeee "I sprawled myself out on the grass. "Come on get up you okayyy ""no I not okay "he picked me up and I remembered us making out.......

Morning

I groaned. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I looked around the room. It wasn't mine but it was familiar. I pulled the sheet around me and looked over to see Jay laying next to me. "What the fuck " I shook him. "I see you awake ...you was wild as fuck last night ""what do you mean I mean I remember we talked at the club but I don't remember coming home with you. " he grabbed his phone and showed me a video of me and him. I was all on the ground then were in the house and I was crying and shit. "Ion reemember this " I laughed "I was a damn wreck where are my clothes? ""Shit if I know " I pulled the sheet around me and got up. "You got some clothes in that bottom drawer. " i went to the dresser and grabbed some clothes. I got dressed. "Are you gonna take me home? ""Only if you let me take you out tonight ""I guess you can. " He got up and walked over to me. He put his hands on my waist. "Quit playin and take me home Jay " He kissed me "you blockin the drawer " I laughed and moved to the side. He grabbed clothes and got dressed.We went to his car. I told him the directions. We pulled up to my house and I saw Drew peeking from our room window. "Well this is it " I opened the door and was about to get out. "No kiss or nun damn " I rolled my eyes and leaned in and kissed him. He tried to go deeper than the kiss. "Nah save that for tonight Jay "he laughed "I'll pick you up at 8""Kay "I waved him off. Now I'm back in this hell hole. I unlocked the door and there it was. "Where the hell were you that you didn't come home last night ""None of your business worry about yourself " I walked upstairs with him behind me."You are my business when I get pictures from my niggas of you dancin on somebody else ""Ok and we are not together anymore why can't you fuckin understand that shit ""Cause we never got divorced dammit " I paused. "What did you just say ""when we were suppose to divorce the second time I brought you the papers. You signed them and I didn't bring them to the divorce office ""Are you fuckin kidding me right now ""I was gonna tell you ""its been 2 damn years when ""when I felt it was right and I just put it out there ""You just put it out there after you see me with someone else well guess the fuck what we are never getting back together because I am back with Jay ""so you go back to that nigga after he put ya stupid ass through bullshit ""you fuckin are too... you just like him puttin me through bullshit " I pushed him. "You gon stop puttin ya damn hands on me fore I hit ya lil ass back then ima be the wrong one " he shoved me. "You did it before twice it makes no difference. "I mushed his head. He grabbed my arms. "I said stop fuckin touchin me for I hit you the fuck back"he pushed me back on the bed."Hit me then fuck, lil bitch"I threw a pillow and the remote at him "I'm so tired of you "I pushed him with every word. He turned around and slapped the shit outta me I fell on the floor"I said stop you don't fuckin listen stubborn ass "I held my face and got up. "Fuck you Drew "I buried my face in the pillow. He hovered over me."baby I'm sorry " he started to unbutton my shirt. "Leave me alone... "I pushed him off me. "Baby I didn't mean to hit you I'm sorry "He raised my shirt and kissed stomach "move ""no im sorry ""why when you will do it again ""I won't ""I don't believe you, I fuckin hate you, and im tired of you, I've had six of your kids, still legally married to you,and you wanna slap me ""And I'll do it again ""exactly but you sorry "I got up and grabbed some clothes from the closet and put them in a bag. I called Jay. "Umm hey can you come pick me up.. I need to stay with you for a few days.... thank you... I love you too " we hung up and I went downstairs and sat on the porch. I left him upstairs. I mean he threatens me sayin he would but this time he actually did. "You wanna leave a nigga and shit after they put that ass in check " he stepped outside holding his bottle of henny. He sat in the chair next to me "you gonna be runnin back when he whoop yo ass worst that that fuckin slap in ya face... you a hoe.. you went from Jay to me to August to me again to August to me to jacquees to me again to Jay again.. in the end you gon always be with me hoe " I ignored him and closed my eyes. I thought about the beginning when my mama was around. If she was still here she would be the person I could go to. She could've taught me about things my dad couldn't. I never knew what love really was but I knew what it is to be in love. Jay was the person I loved with everything.He may have did things to me physically but he never not once said he didn't love me. Then you have Drew. I damn near had all his kids. He says he loves me and I love him but I don't love him like I did before like I love him as bein a friend or my best friend. I don't love him as my boyfriend or my husband to be legal I guess. The person who I really love his Jay. I been using Drew, Aug,and Quees as a way to forget those feelings for him but when it comes to think about all of it Jay was there he was my first everything besides marriage. And besides the beatings we did have good moments at times. Even with Jj and Lonnie.I felt myself being shook. I realized it was Jay "Jay ""Ke come on " I looked at Drew who was sittin calmly with his bottle of henny. Jay pulled my arm and I grabbed my bag. He put me in the car and got in on the drivers side. He pulled off and we stopped at the light. "Lemme see your face "he turned my face to him. "What did he do ""just slapped me ""Did you fight back? ""I deserved it I kept hitting him and he kept sayin stop or he was gonna hit me but I kept hitting and he slapped me ""you didn't deserve shit not what he did or ...",he paused and looked away from me and out the window. "You didn't deserve it from me either. You never do anything wrong to nobody. I thought me gettin outta the game would help us it did at some point but things happened when I found out you cheated... something just came over medium because I thought you were scared to even think about somebody else. And I'm sorry " he looked at me with tears rolling down his cheeks. I grabbed his face and pulled him to me.I kissed him and wiped his tears. "Sorry it took all these year to say this to you but I love you and I always did just never expressed it like I should have ""Im sorry it took all this time to realize I wanted you, I went out with all of them to forget the feelings I had for you ""so what are we now ""we can take it slow I have to handle things first ""ight coo " we drove to his house. We chilled and I decided to take a nap...lawwdd knows I need it......

Shout out to my babbbbyyy ChilledBreezy.....she listens to me when no one else does.. she keep shit A1... She my babyyy nobody elses... if I hadn't met you idk what would life be like, like I love you on some shit.... you like my other half bruhh.... but yall follow my babbbyy and read her story(that she better update) ..... I know you gone see this kmsl but I love you girrllll!!!!