Things I Hate Aout My Family

All My Grandmother And My Mom Care About Is Weight.

My family is a firm believer that they need to be skinny to be pretty, especially my grandma and my mom. 

My grandma grew up skinny, she complains about how she was teased for being too skinny in school, but now she is older and a bit rounder. She takes diet pills, she doesn't really eat either. She makes comments on what I eat (if I even do that day).  She smokes atleast 2 packs a day, she gives my mom random pills and says they will do well, all they talk about is weight loss and foods that are healthy and stuff. 

Don't be wrong, I am happy if they're healthy but I don't think they are sometimes. I think since I have been here, my grandma eats one meal a day. I mean i do too, but she is older, she should be eating more so her body is functioning properly. She looks great anyway. 

My mom, she has a wide body frame, she has very wide hips, and so it is harder for her to lose weight, and she isn't supposed to be as skinny as she wants to be. She has purchased multiple bottles of diet pills, take multiple supplements. Her lowest weight was 120 and she is 5"4, so that is like perfect weight for her body, but she still tried to lose more. But her weight got heavier from her pregnancy.

She just had another child so I can, see why she would want to lose the baby weight, she is on weight watchers and it is amazing for her. she has lost like 30 pounds since she gave birth. (No she doesnt breast feed so the baby isn't at harm) She has children, she should not be supporting that kind of body image. She taught me to hate my body and to stop eating as much, now I have diet issues and my self esteem is extremely low. She ruined her daughters self image, and I am not letting her do that to my new sister. 

I am sick and tired of thinking I am not good enough because my mom is selfish. I am sick of being scared for my sister, I shouldn't have to worry this much but i am forced to. I guess its my job to help her. Because lord knows my mom won't.