I was walking towards the middle of the bridge. My chicas behind me , walking together like the crew we are. People at school know us as 'Las Chingonas' because well that's what we are. I could hear Beth and Zoe whispering , "Pero que loca eres, why would u dare her do to that!" , "She's not going to do it , chill" Zoe says. While Alex and Dulce are just laughing their guts out , who knows what the reason may be. I stop walking , "We are here , aqui estamos chicas". Before I start to climb we all stood there in a circle. For a second I felt like I was saying goodbye without actually having to speak. I look at Alex and flashbacks of times we got into the LeBain club with a fake I.d when we were only fourteen passed through my head. I think she noticed fear in my eyes because she says "orale chica, you got this shit". Then I look at Dulce, she smiles and pushes me. It was the type of push I got from her when she told me not to be a pussy and go out with this guy, Ismael. So I did and I had fun because well who wouldn't when you don't have to pay for your food at a fancy restaurant. But one thing I learned is, as classy as a guy is to you , all they want is sex , so yeah never again. Dulce pushes me again and gives me that smile. Out loud I tell her "I'm not a pussy" and push her back. I guess you can say Alex and Dulce are the type of girls that have balls , although they really don't. Then there is Zoe and Beth the good girls. Me ? Well I fit in both categories. Zoe comes up to me and says "I hope you don't think im a B , for daring you to do this" she looks down at the floor as if she were ashamed. "Zoe your not a bitch , fun remember?" I smile and take her hands and squeeze them trying to comfort her. "Mira we don't got all day" Beth says with an attitude. Ever since Beth went out with axel she's been acting like a bitch. I don't like Axel at all , he's just using her but she's blind enough not to see it , whatever. I'm ready , "Chicas watch and learn".
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I start climbing to what you could say looks like a fence on the bridge. Not much climbing needed to be done. I stand up on the edge , ready to jump. I've never pictured myself actually standing on the edge of the Brooklyn bridge. I can feel it , my heart , it's beating faster and faster , pounding from my chest, it almost felt like adrenaline but yet not in the slightest. All my emotions came to me , happy , sad , mad , gloomy , I was just so bi-polar like you wouldn't believe. I screamed my lungs out to let all my emotions flow out of me. Once that was out of my system, as I looked down at the water my throat got tight. I thought to myself "comon violet you know how to swim , this should be no biggie (big deal)". I glace back one more time at my chicas and I notice Beth isn't there , she's gone. With the way she's been acting she probably went to go fuck off with axel. Before I could glance back forward , something happens to me ... I fell .
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Before I knew it I felt my body hit hard against the water , like if I were to hit the sidewalk. My body all wet, the water so cold I was confused but most of all scared. I felt something crack but that was the least of my worries. I tried swimming up , up towards where I could breathe, but I couldn't. It was as if someone or something was pulling me deeper and deeper into the water. I looked down at my foot , my ankle was stuck between 2 rocks. Blood was all over in the water coming from my ankle , I couldn't feel my ankle at all. I knew I could only hold my breath for a certain amount of time, 3 minutes maximum. I could feel myself , running out of oxygen. I tried pushing the rocks to let my foot free , but it was no use because I felt myself getting weaker. Right then and there I knew that the only solution would be yanking my ankle from the rocks, even if it ment more blood. I yanked but it seemed like the more I struggled , the more it got stuck. My vision started getting blurry , I yanked one more time and finally got my ankle free. The superficial skin on my ankle was gone but I didn't care , all I wanted was to breathe fresh air again. My vision was getting dark but not dark enough to block the sun light that was shinning into the water. My thoughts were "I'm gonna die". I looked all around me , I tried swimming up out of the water. My body wasn't moving , it was like I was shot in the back and paralyzed. I knew that if I opened my mouth water would get in but I had no choice , I couldn't breathe. I screamed "help!" but no sound came out , it was like got shot in the throat the second I opened my mouth. I knew my body was soon to be filled with water and that was gonna be the last of me. "Move body, swim" I say but still no sound comes out. I swollow so much water that I know if I say one more word I'm done for. "Please" ....
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My body , cold, wet and pale. It felt so light like if I were to weigh nothing. It was dark and for once I felt peace...
