Spoken Words Of The Truth

I hung my head in shame as all the teenagers in the hall pointed and laughed at me. "She is so ugly!" A girl laughed. "And so fat!" A girl said. "Not to mention a loser" Another one said. "Also a nerd" A guy voice said.

I couldn't find the strength nor the confidence to even lift my head up high or to even proove them wrong. I was too worn out to show them they were wrong.

After these many years I gave up. Hi, my name is Faith. So much for the name, only if my name actually meant what my life was going to be like, I wanted my life to be full of Faith.

But I guess it is just a name. I bumped into someone and gulped. Oh no. "Watch where you're goin b**ch!" A voice snarled. I nodded my head and walked by them. I didn't feel like talking, I was too tired. I couldn't sleep last night, I cried from 8 PM to 2 AM.

Pathetic right? Well, not my fault. My mum amd dad had a big arguement that night and dad left, mum said they were planning on divorce, but I knew that they wouldn't. They always said that but it never happened. They needed each other too much.

But it seems like I am forgotten in the family. I am sitting right infront of them but they continue fighting and soon mum will bring me into the picture. She threatens dad that she will take me away and he will never see me again, which makes me upset.

I just want to go die in a hole! Also, I have gotten into cutting. If I was to wear a tank top people would be horrified, well disgusted, at what they saw. Not horrified because they hate me. I am 17 now. Last year of high school.

When I was 12, I was pulled into a world of dark nothingness. Depression is one way of saying it. It was like, the things that hurt me is what made me feel so alive.

So staying in depression is what made me feel alive. Don't ask me why. I got into cutting when I was 14. 2 years later.

Thats when mum and dad startee fighting and when I started getting teased. Anyway, I will go on about this later.

The bell rang so I quickened my pace. I arrived to math and as I went to sit down somebody shoved me to the ground. "My seat freak" A girl spat. I looked around and saw people put their hands on the seats that were spare. I sighed and walked all the way to the back. I sat on the ground and got all my things out. My teacher 'Mr. Jordan' walked in cheefully and said a joke I didn't bother listening too.

Everyone laughed. Don't get me wrong, Mr. Jordan is an awesome teacher, but I really want to curl up and sleep.

Math went by quickly and I waited for everyone to leave. Yay, lunch. "Hurry Faith" Mr. Jordan said holding open the door. I nodded then packed away all my stuff. I stood up then walked out of the door thanking him for the great lesson. People shoulder barged me as they walked by and I nearly fell over as a big stocky jock walked past. He smirked evily at me before flipping me off.

I looked at the ground and ran to a place where nobody would dare to go....THE LIBRARY.

DUN DUN DUN!!!!!!!!!!!!

My stomach grumbled so I ditched the library and walked quickly to my locker. I shoved my small bag in their and grabbed some money. I saw a bunch of jocks walking towards me so I grabbed all my money, which was $20.

It was all I had. "G-" Before they could say anything I held out my money for them. The smirked pleased that I wasn't holding a big fight for it. I winced as he took it and walked off.

I felt light headed and without any warning I just dropped to the ground. My head leaned against my locker and my legs were spread out i front of me. Everyone was in the cafeteria now, so I was the only one here. My eyes slowly closed then I kept them open.

I heard footsteps and accidentally let a tear fall. "And here is the hal-" The person stopped talking. "Is she okay?" Another person asked, both women.

The principal, Miss. White and the librarian 'Mrs. Maple.

I didn't realize my eyes were closed until now so I opened my eyes slowly. My eyes were a bit blurry so I rubbed my eyes with the back of my baggy T-Shirt. I wore a baggy long sleeve shirt with long jeans to cover my scars.

"I'm okay" I said, but it came out more of a croak. My voice cracked on every word. "Are you sure?" Miss. White said walking up to me. I nodded still feelig light headed. I slowly stood up and used all my might not to fall straight back down.

I looked behind Mrs. Maple to see a boy and a girl. They looked my age, and looked like they were related. The boy had dark brown hair that was falling across his forhead which would

make any girl melt.

But not me, I didn't really have an affect on guys and they had no affect on me. Simple as that.

He looked directly at me. His eyes were a brown colour. I looked away instantly breaking eye contact. I looked at the girl, she was gorgeous! She had beautiful brown hair that flowed down mid-spine in natural curls. She wore a tight purple tank top with a black cardagain over it, while the boy wore black jeans with a black shirt, with a denim black jacket.

He also wore a black and white unit hat on backwards. I could tell instantly 'HE WAS A BAD BOY!'. He smirked at me but I rolled my eyes. "Who are they?" I asked softly. "Oh, this is Ryan and Rebekkah" Miss. White said smiling.

"Oh" Was all I could say. Mrs. Maple checked her watch "We have a meeting, do you mind if you could show these two around?" She asked. I sighed and nodded. This shall be fun. "Thankyou" She replied.

I put on a fake smile and waved. "Hello" Rebekkah smiled and waved. I nodded and put on a half smile. Fake of course. The smile meant nothing, meaning It was a fake smile to hide the pain and sadness.

I waved back "Whats your name?" She asked cheerfully. "Faith" I whispered. "Pretty name" She said. "Thankyou" I said. "Okay, well I have 2 rules" I said. They nodded "Number 1, once this is finished you don't want to be seen, around me or talking to me, or heck even looking at me!" I said.

They frowned "Why?" Ryan asked. "Because I am the schools freak, I always have and always will be. If you are seen around me, well lets just say you will regret it until the day you

die" I sighed. They thought for a second. "Well can you show us around then?" Ryan asked.

"Yup" I said turning and walking ahead. "This is the bathroom" I said pointing to the mens and ladies toilets.

They nodded. I heard the clicking of high heels. Oh great. I heard laughter before they came around the corner.

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HOLA! Guess what?! I got a new hawaii shirt! My mums friend went to hawaii for 2 weeks! HOW COOL?! Anyway, do you guys like it? Well I have no idea! Haha, BYE