I'm falling
I'm falling very fast.
The ground is far away so I have time to think. I'd prefer it this way.
The wind in my hair and the cool breeze puts me into a state of bliss.
As I fall, my life falls with me.
My happy childhood to my right.
My not so happy teenage years to my left. In front of me is his face, going up, to safety. I want to grab him and pull him down with me, but I don't want him in the afterlife with me so I'l just leave him.
I'm trying to get him out of my mind right now, I want my last moments to be without him. The person who is making me do this in the first place.
Was I pushed by him?? Or was it him that made me jump?? Either way, this is to get away from him.
The ground is closer now.
I can feel the warmth of the city hit my face.
Here we go.
My last moments of living, before eternal bliss.
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I lay awake in my bed.
I just woke up from the greatest dream ever.
And I suddenly realise, with a horribe feeling in my chest, that it never actually happened.
The one thing I want most in my life, to die, will only come true in my dreams.
I want so much for it to come true in real life, but I'm stuck here, in this world of sin and evil....alone.....
