Cosmic Love

Effie

I walk downstairs trip over my cat , this has become a routine by now , I walk down he sits there plotting his new way to kill me, As soon as I make it to the last step I smell bacon , bacon is good especially my moms bacon , I sit infront of my dad, reading god knows what of his computer, "Pathetic." He says taking his round glasses off.
"What honey?" My mother asked in her sweetest voice "They're letting all gays marry in all fifty states" he says in his raspy angry voice , My dad was the pastor of the community church, so of course everything goes by the bible in this household , can't get away with anything which made me feel cluster phobic in my own skin, They push me to date guys wait let me rephrase They push me to date asshole guys just so I don't turn gay , thankfully they have no idea what my heads been thru lately, Ever since I was eight, I've taught of girls in a different way of friendship I want to know what it is to hold their hand and kiss them , hold them, I can never express that in this house I don't know what it is to live and love , my parents have it like prison in here , seventeen and full of curiosity, but I know what I feel for girls is not a question.
I left for school in my bike , like always nothing new here just riding my bike like a total good girl , I almost got ran over but when I explain that to my mom she said "Stop being dramatic nothing will happen to you" then she went on and on how that's all they do in Copenhagen, she grew up their I've never visited but it sounded interesting , she taught me the whole language when I was little, My dad was A white man nothing interesting about him at all maybe that he was in a punk rock band and traveled the whole world then one night under the Nebraska starts he found my mother in a pub , after that they made their life here , dad got into being a pastor and mom got into accounting.
My whole life I've been label as the pastors daughter, "She's to good" "Hey how about go read the bible", They didn't get that I saw the world in a different way, I got used to it after the years.
"Effie!" My brunette friend says once I walk into school , "hey Isabella." I say walking calmly to my locker. "There's this new girl, she's like a dyke." She says grossed out , "I don't think they like being called that izz." I say opening my locker and taking my English book out. "I don't care what they like being called she's not attractive every straight girl is saying she is I don't see it." She says , I laugh and turned around I bumped into this brunette with a hair cut a guy would have she had a beanie on with jeans and a shirt ,they all looked from the guys section at a mall.
"Oh um I'm sorry." She says smiling at me "Uh no it's okay." I say smiling, we stared at each other until of course Isabella jumped in, "we should get to class Effie." She says pushing me away from that mysterious girl , most like like she's the one everyone is talking about. "That's her!" She says whispering to me "Yeah I know now." I say walking into class. "She's not attractive." She says sitting down "You probably don't find her as attractive as a gay girl would so calm down." I say because goddamn she was hot I take my seat. "Alright then." She says kinda hurt, I see my so called boyfriend make his way in the classroom, he's everything a girl will want Tall, Smart , Football player , and a great style but thats only what they see , I've seen other sides of him and well they aren't as glamours but to me I didn't care, nor was I happy with him.
"Hey babe." Adam says to me smiling and sitting behind me.
"Hey." I say faking a smile , that new girl , sat to my right , I didn't make eye contact with her for multiple reasons , one being my religious best friend sat on my left and my hypocrite of a boyfriend sits behind me.
Mrs.Garrey started class we were ready the hamlet by Shakespeare in my opinion it was a good book , being a theater freak and all I love the history I love how it makes me wonder where and why, the new girl seem to like it as well or maybe she was pretending only god knows, I study her while she was reading she looked up and saw me looking at her she smiled , I smile back at her, then she goes back to reading so do I, Right after school I head to the choir room , I'm not in choir but I like going in there to find peace before I go to my house and feel trapped once again , a lot of people hanged out in this hallway to be alone or to make out , Last year two kids were caught having sex in the theater room , couldn't they just wait till they got home? Anyways this hallway is full of different noises and smells , I walk into the room place my stuff on the stand , my friend Connor was in here , me and Connor because friends right when my parents kicked him and his family out of the church for being gay and his family supporting him, after all that's their only son my parents are such jerks that it kills me inside.
"Hey Effie." He says smiling with a guitar In his arms "Hey Connor." I say smiling and sitting myself next to him "Song?" He asked "Uh...Amy winehouse you know I'm no good." I say smiling , I love Amy Winehouse song and voice I'm into anything that has soul into it , Connor tells me I sing like her and I tell him I'm to much of a Carrie underwood , there's no way in hell I can be Amy Winehouse, but singing was a great escape from the really world , I go into this different dimension where everyone is happy and most importantly I'm happy.
"That was awesome!" Connor says cheerful, I smile "thank you." "So Effie how was your day?" He asked me putting his guitar down "Eh okay ," I say shrugging my shoulders "what about you?" I add , "It was okay could be better." He says getting up , "Agree," I say getting up as well , we walk out the room "So that new girl." He says poking my arm "What about her?" I say laughing "She's cute isn't she?" He asked smiling , Connor was the only one that really knew about my sexuality I only felt comfortable talking to him about it he's the only one that knows , "I guess yeah." I say smiling "Dani and Effie." He says teasing me , "Shut up!" I say hiding my face.
On the way back from school she wouldn't leave my mind it's like she was trapped in there and it only took eight hours for my taught a to tie themselves all over my mind, I rode my bike in peace and let the wind guide me home, with the taught of dani and her beautiful wide smile.