Still The Good Girl?

Chapter 26 (The End)

I can't believe this happened... And I only left her for a few minuets! How could I have done that?! I was too selfish! I only thought about myself! Why did I have to go talk to Ryan? Why didn't I just stay with mom?!

"IM SO STUPID!" I accidentally said out loud.

"You're anything but stupid" Ryan says "you couldn't have done anything to stop this."

"I know, but why couldn't I just been with her when this happened?!" I say tears in my eyes "I didn't want it to happen so soon!"

"I know, but it was meant to be" he says hugging me closer to him and I burry my head into his shoulder crying. "I'm so sorry"

"Clary?! Are you-" I hear a gasp next to you and a muffled sob. I look up to see Caleb, tears already running down from his eyes. "Mom" he falls to the floor and I let go of Ryan and go over to my brother and hug him. Holding him like my life depended on it. I whisper calming, soothing words into his ear but I dot think it's helping because we are just crying harder if possible.

We sit there while the doctors and nurses slowly finish unplugging all the machines. I just sat there hugging Caleb and him hugging me.

Both crying.

Both heartbroken.

Both in shock.

I mean do you blame us, we just lost our mother, the only one who actually cared about us. All of a sudden I feel a tap on my shoulder. I look up to see a nurse from before, Nancy.

"Um, hello, I'm sorry about the loss of your mother, but awhile ago she asked me to give these to you when she happened to pass" Nancy says and hands me a note and Caleb a note.

"Thank you very much" I say and sit up from Caleb and onto a bench that was close. Ryan came and sat next to me and Caleb still on the floor but more agents the wall.

I open the envelope that has my name written in my mothers handwriting. My breath hitches at the sight holding the letter close to my heart before slowly opening to read the letter.

Dear Clary,
You are my baby girl, best friend, other half. I hate to be leave you on such short notice, but there is nothing I can do about it. I am so very sorry I had to leave this world in this way. But I want you to be strong! Stay the happy, bubbly girl you are! I would hate myself if you would loose that because of me.

You see, when you go home, things are going to e different, but I want to to be strong through it all! I want you to tell your father to go and find someone else to fall in love with. I want him to be happy! Just like I want you to be also.

Smile everyday, even when you think of me. Think of all the good times we had together! Not of what happened on this day. This day was Gods way of telling me that it was my time to go. Just think that I'm seeing grandma and grandpa. Okay.

I will always love you to the moon and back! I want you to go do what you want. Go and get your dreams! Go get your dream man! Or woman! I chuckle at that. I love you! No matter what. Oh and I want to be burned and my ashes to be let go somewhere you and Caleb think is right!

I could write five billion pages to you but I'm not going to hold you up.

Love always,
Mom

P.S. I want you to know that I think you and Ryan are going to be the best couple ever! I want you to know that I ship you guys all the way!

I was smiling by the end of the letter. I really do love you too mom. I put the letter back into its envelope and turn towards Ryan.

Still heartbroken.

Still in shock.

But not crying.

I was smiling, it was a mix of sad and happy. I was thinking of all the good memories I have of us. Us gossiping about the whores in school. Our packing adventures. And just us being together.

"What was in that letter that was making you smile and laugh?" Ryan asks.

"Oh just my mom being my mom" I say "I think that we should finish up what we need to do here and go home"

I know that it sounds bad, but in reality, I know she will be right with me. Through sickness and health, through better and worse. I know that's what happens in weddings, but you know it's not only for your husband or wife, it's for your children, family, best friends!

But I really want to get home and finally sleep in my own bed, and get back to school. I know who wants to get back to school? Well I sure as hell do! I miss my friends! And I think I have missed so much in the two days gone. I miss my friends!

(•-•)

"Flight 124 is boarding now to Atlantic City Air Port, New Jersey" the intercom person says. Caleb, Ryan, and I are all about to get on the plane to go home and finally be able to get back to a normal life. Ryan and I have now been away from home for four days now. My friends are freaking out and worried sick about me.

My dad was able to make it to the hospital as soon as he could and he stayed there with mom with so much sadness and sorrow in his eyes. He too got a letter from mom. Dad signed all the papers that were needed and he left for work. As usual, he barely spoke to me or Caleb. He was okay with mom being burned and have no funeral.

My moms ashes were sealed tightly so nothing will happen to her on the trip home. I just hope that everything will be okay with her.

As Caleb, Ryan, and I all enter the plane looking for our seats. Me and Ryan have 19a and b. Caleb has 19c. When we find our seats me and Ryan sit down and when we are settled in I lay my head on his shoulder.

It's not even close to half way through the team and I've already made that most amazing friends ever, had a boyfriend, got another boyfriend, finding out that my mother has cancer, got into a car accident, my mother dying, and all the little details in between.

I already know that this has been the best year of my life and I couldn't wish for anything better.

THE END!!!!!!

A/N
Hey!! Its the last chapter! I know what a weird way to end the book! But hey! I am happy with it! If you think other wise then you suck it! But no really what did you think of my story?! I want to know the truth!!! I am always up for good and bad critiques! They help me write better next time!

I am going to miss you all like hell! You were all very supportive! Even though it was a few of you, it was still enough!

You tell me epilogue or no? Well I love you all!!! If anyone want to talk, get advise, or anything I'm here! Message me!!