Flying to Neverland

Chapter 7: So this is what it feels like to have your heart explode

 Trace's POV:

I lay on my bed, playing video games, wondering what made Lily so emotional enough to hug me like that in school. I saw her do the same to her friends at lunch. Maybe she just needed hugs today. I dunno, something about her just seemed, like she was giving up. On what, I didn't know.

I thought about the rumors that were going around, on how she cut. I doubted that.

Lily was too happy to cut. I almost always saw her smiling. 

I felt compelled to go check on her though, but maybe she just wanted to be left alone. 

I was battling with myself on whether I should go check up on her when I heard a small thump. Okay, now I'm definetely checking up on her. I got up and crossed my room, opening my door. I don't know why, but I felt a terrible sense of dread hit me. Like a cold hand gripping my heart. I walked a little faster and got up to her door. I turned the knob and it was locked. 

The dread in my heart deepened. Her door was never locked.

        "Lil?" I asked. No sound came out. Maybe she was sleeping?

        "Lily?" I asked a little louder. Again, no answer. Now I was scared.

With shaking hands, I fumbled for the paper clip at the top of her door, that we kept incase she accidently locked hersef in. I dropped the paper clip and swore, picking it up and unlocking the door.

I opened it and fell sideways into the doorway at what I saw.

My precious sister, the twin I always loved, was laying in a pool of blood with a bloody wrist on the floor, laying next to a picture of dad. I was speechless. I couldn't move. I couldn't think. All I could do was feel. Feel pain, regret. Sadness, hurt. 

A strangled sound escaped me as I collapsed to my knees, and I crawled over to her. I picked her up in my arms and held her close to me, burying my face into her neck, sobbing soundlessly.

        "OH GOD WHYYYY? WHYYYY? MY OWN SISTER HOW COULD YOU TAKE HER????" I yelled, sobbing.

        "LILYYYYY!!!!!" I screamed, letting tears fall on her.

        "Trace what is going on up ther- OH MY GOD!!!" I heard my mom scream. I didn't look up. I hugged my sister tight, sobbing, feeling the life drain out of me as well.

My beautiful, wonderful sister. I should've paid more attention. I should've done something.

        "God please don't take her I love her too much I love you Lily please don't leave me I need you." I said into her hair. I heard my mom talking on the phone into the distance, and heard police sirens shortly after.

Suddenly rough, strong arms were pulling her from my arms. I held on tighter.

        "NO NO NO DON'T TAKE HER!!! DON'T TAKE HER I NEED HER!!!!" I yelled. Hands grabbed me from behind and pulled me off of her, taking her away from me.

I sobbed on the floor, probably covering myself in her blood. I didn't care.

My sister was gone. 

She was all I had.