ALWAYS AND FOREVER by: Mae Bernadeth C. Pasay
inspired by: NOTHING MUCH
Million of thoughts came rushing to my mind before I wrote this piece so I decided to write it down so that I wont forget the others :D May you enjoy reading this :)
* What if a bird fell in love with a fish? where would they live? Who keeps the fins and who loses the wings? It's an irony but that's how cruel yet poetic love can be. :) There is a special comfort between two matching souls. An unbreakable bond of constant support and closeness. It's a warm embrace feels so right. Or when two hands fit snugly. It's a feeling that's hard to define but easy to recognize. And when you find that comfort you just know you'll never let go.
"In life, there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and loves you in return, so once you have found him don't ever let him go!"
"The only way to love is not finding the perfect person but by loving the imperfect person perfectly. True love doesn't have a happy ending, it simply doesn't end."
It's funny to think how you're never touched anymore any of your kept quotations when you were still in love. It seems so easy to explicit the positive phase of love but very hard to face what hurtful feelings it voluntarily inhale in our lives. A very good example is when you meet someone who means a lot to you ever since, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to LET GO.
*So much for that, this is how it should really start :D
Starting that day, crying seemed to be the only option I had, crying seemed to be the answer of everything. But I don't want the people around to see me for I don't think that they'd understand. SMILE.... Is what I put on to satisfy all the people around me. I'm just learning how to smile, and that's not easy to do. Pretending everything's fine when I know it isn't. Sometimes it hurts more to smile in front of everyone, than to cry alone. I want to be remembered as the girl who always wear a smile and brighten each one's day, even if I couldn't brighten my own.
Until now, the reality that you left me holding on is the hardest thing to understand and the the thing that takes the longest to realize. But after it hits me in the face, I never forget it and it is always here in my memory and is still the best to look at. The way I get used to the tears and the pain, tssss none other things could compare. You can't just hug me and say "it's okay" because right now.... it doesn't feel that way.... but you can just hug me and say nothing at all.
Pain is my friend, it tells me when I am seriously injured it keeps me awake and angry but the best thing about it is, it lets me know that i'm alive and makes me stronger in facing realities. Making me happy for several months and hurting me now and forever will never be a regret, it taught me the true meaning of Love, it's just about the loving and hurting thing :p (which took a great role in our love story).
but, it's up to us how we'll make the story worthwhile.
The least lesson I learned changes and will change something in my life forever. There will be times when I would wish I can go back to how things were but I can't because things have changed so much. I would not consider myself getting better to the pain I've been through... because it's not that easy to overcome specially when you're not used to the pain. You can do things which is beyond your control and which you never thought you can.
Maybe, LOVE STORIES doesn't always succeed but it always teaches us to let go if we can no longer hold on.
I guess that is just LOVE....It's not just about the long wait....
but it's also about letting the person go and allowing the feelings remain always and forever :)
