IM SITTING IN A CORNER SCARED, NOT KNOWING WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT.
IMAGES RUSHING THROUGH MY HEAD. I'M SCREAMING NO AND WHY, EVEN WHO ARE YOU?
I FEEL SOMETHING GRABBING ME PULLING ME EVEN FARTHER INTO WHAT EVERYONE IS SCARED OF.
MOST PEOPLE FEAR IT AND RUN FROM IT, SOME LET IT IN AND LET IT DWELL WITH IN THEM. MOST PEOPLE STUGGLE WITH IT AND TRY TO FIGHT IT EACH AND EVERYDAY. THEY CALL IT DEPRESSION OR SICKNESS. THEY CALL IT FEAR AND GREIF, BUT ONLY I KNOW THE NAME OF IT...EVERYONE FEARS IT EVERYONE TRIES TO RUN AND SCREAM WHEN ITS NEAR OR AROUND THEM. I TRY TO FIGHT IT TO EACH AND EVERYDAY, BUT IT IS NOT FEAR, DEPRESSION, OR SICKNESS. ITS HARD AND WEIRD TO TELL ANY OF YOU THIS, I NORMALLY WOULDN'T TYPE THIS UP AND SHOW THE WORLD WHAT IM THINKING, BUT THIS IS DIFFERENT. TO ME THIS THING THAT IS WEIGHING MY DOWN, HOLDING ME BACK IS NOT DEPRESSION.( WELL IT COULD BE) BUT IT'S MY CONSTANT WAR GOING ON INSIDE OF ME ITS HARD TO FIGHT BETWEEN THE GOOD AND EVIL, BUT ITS NOT IMPOSSIBLE TO WIN IT. I HOPE INSIDE THAT THE GOOD SIDE WOULD WIN AND NOT LET IT TAKE OVER ME. IT PULLS AND DRAGS ME DOWN MAINLY TO THE GROUND SOMETIMES UNDER THE WATER. I SCREAM, SHOUT, AND CRY PULLING AWAY NOT WANTING IT TO TAKE ME. I HEAR IT CALLING MY NAME WHISPERING HISSING AT ME TO SOME CLOSER TO TAKE ITS HAND AND LET IT DWELL WITH IN ME, BUT I GET FAR AWAY FROM IT. BUT DAY BY DAY IT GETS CLOSER AND CLOSER LOUDER ADN LOUDER. UNTILL I FALL INTO IT AS IT SCRAPES AND SCARS ME. I CANT GET AWAY FROM IT I RUN AWAY EVEN THOUGH I EXCEPTED IT, BUT NOW I DONT WANT IT I WANT IT TO GO AWAY. I WANT IT TO LEAVE ME ALONE, IT WONT GO ITS EATING ME ALIVE. IM SLOWLY DYING INSIDE. I DONT WANT TO DIE BUT EVERYONE HAS THEIR TIME....SO NOW THAT IVE TOLD YOU HOW I FEEL INSIDE ABOUT MY WAR THAT NEVER DIES. BUT FINALLY ILL SAY THIS AGAIN ITS NOT DEPRESSION, NOR SICKNESS, NEITHER FEAR ITS COMPLETE AND TOTAL DARKNESS.......
