Random destiel and sabriel one shots (Boyxboy)

the video

cas's pov: i set up the camera. I set it on my desk and write on a piece of paper "watch the video ->" with an arrow pointing to the camera. I turn the camera on.
         " I-i'm sorry." I choke out, tears running down my face and I get up onto a chair. "The rope hanging from the ceiling fan seems to be the only way out of this world." I say. "the bullies, my abusive father, my douche of a brother. mom, I love you. do not blame yourself, please. You're the reason I held on so long. You are the reason for my existence. I would have ended it along time ago, if not for you. I love you. dad, I hate you. you abusive fuck, I called the cops. they are probably going to get here just moments after I die. don't you dare sulk for me. You dont deserve to be able to call me your son. That is the only thing you haven't called me yet." i choked on my words, pain flooding through me. " g-go fuck yourself. Charlie, my beautiful little sister, you are my world. I love you so much, please be strong for me. Dont take the was out like-like i did. Please." another choked sob managed to escape my throat into the saddened air around me. "Gabe, you and charlie make my life complete. But, there is just one factor missing. and his name is dean Winchester. dean, I love you. dont blame yourself, well, that email you sent certainly pushed me over the edge. I-I thought you loved me, i was going to ask you out, because i loved- no i still do love you. God dammit you bastard, i still love you as more than a friend dean Winchester. Its the sperm donor im forced to call my father and axle, Crowley, Azazel, abandon, Michel, my asshole of a brother thats also to blame. Im sorry. I love you, my mom, Gabriel, charlie and fucking dean Winchester. i love you all i just cant take this any longer. its too much for me. But oh dean Winchester, you're such a bastard but i still love you. dont give up, please." I say, put my head in the rope and kick the chair. Then, the door opens and someone yells, and runs at me then, everything goes black.

Deans pov: I heard cas say
     " But oh dean Winchester, you're such a bastard but i still love you. ." from inside his room. His mom let me up, after all, he is my best friend. I need to keep tabs on the boy. I stopped for a minute. He loves me. I had loved him for so long. I burst into his room. to do what, I dont know.  But I guess I will never know because when I walk in, he kicks back a chair and hangs from a rope.
      "cas!"I  run over to him and pick him up. when I put my hand up to his face, he isn't breathing. so I take the rope off of his neck, and put him on the floor. being me, I know CPR so I put my right hand on his lower breastbone, and began to sing  "staying alive" in my head, going to the beat of the song I pushed down on his chest and then cam back up. I did this thirty times and then put my mouth to his, tilting his head back slightly and opening the airway. I plugged his nose and breathed into his mouth until his chest raised and did it one more time, then went back to compressions. I did this several times and when I had just about given up, and tears were clouding my vision, soaking his shirt he coughs and his eyes flutter open. I pulled him into a hug.
      "you stupid son of a bitch. you almost left me here alone, without the love of my life." I pull away from him and look into his eyes.  I  haven't seen them this bright in a while. I pull him into a kiss as sirens could be heard from outside and shouting from in the house. This is how I started my life with castiel James novak.